2012

taun lalu gue ngepost disini, judulnya '2011'. sekarang gue ngepost disini, judulnya '2012'.

gila ye, setaun cepet banget (tiap akhir taun ngomong gini mulu). buat gue, 2012 cukup berkesan. kesannya? kesan baik. tapi ya ada juga kesan buruknya. that's why we called it 'life', not a fairy-perfect-tale.

2012 gue dibuka dengan King Henry balik ke Arsenal and he nailed it! geez i was beyond haaappy. dan setelah itu banyak kejadian memorable lainnya. bali jogja seangkatan, baduy, bazkom grand carnival, Arsenal 3rd place, Arjuna, naksir orang baru, finally graduated from LIA, spain juara eropa (lagi!), ditinggal sang kapten ke MU which really was devastating for me, dapetin Poldi Santi dan Oli, ke bali dua kali dalam kurun 2 bulan, turning on 17 and got my own KTP!!!, got my own car with my name on the documents!, pacarnya fabregas hamil dan kabarnya si bayi itu perempuan, KETEMU CESC dan Xabi Alonso!!!, ketemu sama sodara jauh yang ternyata beyond fuuuun, dan hal-hal #wazzek lainnya yang gamungkin diuraikan satu-satu disini.

intinya, i thank Allah for the life He has given to me. for the joys and sadness. for the laughters and the cries. thank you, Ya Allah. Alhamdulillah.

in 2013, may His blessings always be upon us. may we live happily and always feeling grateful.

may He help us to get through this year and give us strengths to get what we want&need.


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

p.s.: Sabila Fadhiah, Fakultas Hukum Universitas Indonesia, 2013. AAAMIN

my non-sugar-daddy club

''you don't choose a football club to be the club you support. it's God that choose you to be their supporter.'' --- Anonymous

honest opinion? i'm agree with that anonymous. i don't know why, maybe bcos i myself never chose myself to be the supporter of Arsenal. it just happens that way.

today i feel so grateful that Allah chose me to be the supporter of Arsenal, not of some Sugar Daddy Clubs (you-know-who). oh yes of course they've got trophies to be proud about, but am i --are we, Gooners-- jealous with them? the honest answer is no. no i'm not lying, the answer is no, i'm --we are, Gooners-- not jealous. why? bcos we've got anything better than them. yes me myself is really craving for real trophies, but to be jealous of those Sugar Daddy Clubs? oho no no. they've got money, we've got class. they've got trophies, we are on the way to that. yes Arsenal may still have a long way to that stage of winning the league again or maybe Champions League, but we are on our way to that. we don't know when, but we know we will be there, with our hardworks and faiths and patiences, we know we will.

this evening i heard the news about Robberto Di Matteo got sacked by Chelsea. the sugar daddy, Roman Abramovich is a smart yet impatient rich guy with a big ambition of be the best in the world with his beloved Chelsea Football Club. they are looking for their 9th/10th manager in their last 8 years with mr. Roman while my beloved club is sticking to their loyal-16-years manager. i'm glad we do. i couldn't picture the days of Arsenal without Arséne. i couldn't and i don't want to. i love him and the whole club. yes, i do.

we are still far from winning the league or CL, in my current thinking. but are you confident enough that your sugar daddy will always sticks with the club forever and not run away with all of the money when they someday bored with the club? :)

i'm not saying that supporting the sugar daddy clubs is wrong and you should support Arsenal instead, i'm just saying that i'm grateful to be the supporter of my club, my non-sugardaddy-club.

good night. love football and keep goonerish!

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i dont know why i sent that offline chat to him. i dont know the exact reason, maybe i'm just missing him.
it's been awhile, about 2 months since the last time i talked to him and he decided to get the fck out of my life. i guess it was my mistake, i said i had a crush on someone in the school, i even mentioned the name. i didnt mean anything by saying that, i really didnt and now i am regretting that.

i can tell he was in pain that day i told him. the way he said ''oh ya, now i will leave you and my feelings for you. hope he'll know somebody out there is needing his admirer so  goddamn bad but it's okay. bye, good luck with life.'' and then *click* was all i heard.

i know it was a mistake to let you go, jun. what an ungrateful kind of girl i am, obviously.

maybe you've moved on there and forgot about me, but i am still sorry for every wrong things i've done to you.

i'm so sorry.

i miss you, always.

wish she will be :)

he was looking for a direction; someone. it was obviously not me bcos if ya, he knew all he needed was turn around and voilà! there i was. but he didn't.

i wish you are happy, always. 

i wish she'll be happy bcos of you, too.

:)

tak ada waktu tuk menjelaskan, tak sangka ini kan datang

waktu hujan turun , di sudut gelap mataku

begitu derasnya, kan ku coba bertahan

angry me?

it's been a sad day, for me. not actually sad, just...broken hearted. it's just hit me; hard, something about him. what? did he just ignored me? maybe it's just me overthinking everything, but really, did he?

we don't know each other. or you could say; he don't know me. we are not friends, we are just strangers; with no memories. we are in the same school, lucky me. he love something that i love too, accidentally. a friend of mine told me about him, and then the story goes.

it's been 6 months. me staring from distance, everytime. he was everything i wanted. it was hard to move on from your first love, but he made me cleared my head off from my 'impossible to forget'. he had that chance to go further. but we didn't know each other. how to expect?

i just deleted his bbm. it was hard, but i'm better off from any kind of distractions like that.

maybe i'll miss his pictures. his DPs.

i'm just too angry to keep his faces on my pages.

1 hour to go to the kick off

VAMOS LA ROJA

lets repeat the 2 years ago glory

VAMOS

told you

and i told you to be patient

i told you to be fine

i told you to be balanced

i told you to be kind

and in the morning i will be with you

but it will be a different kind

i will be holding all the tickets

and you will be owning all the fines

and now all your love is wasted

and who the hell was i?

and i am breaking all the bridges

and at the end of all your lines

who will love you?

who will fight?

who will be far behind?