i've been in a kind of i-tweet-everything-i-feel mood lately. it's kind of frustrating bcos i'm basically a talkative kid and i've been having spare times to think about things that i didnt have time to think about before but i dont really want to talk THAT much on twitter. that's a problem.

i'm an expressive kid, and i simply cannot just keep my feelings to myself bcos if i do, i'll go crazy. i often talk to myself bcos it turned out that i'm my best best listener for myself. we (me and myself) talk about so many things, maybe everything, and so far i've been enjoying that activity.

back to tweet about everything i'm feeling mood, i think i'm gonna be a little bit more active here bcos i dont think anybody is gonna read it regulary.

soooooo... hello!

AAT2013 Part 1

Indonesia XI 0 – 2 Liverpool FC.

as much as i hate sp*rs and van p*ssy, i miss my Arsenal so bad!

hari ini seminggu yang lalu, gue lagi di kasur. tepar abis nonton Arsenal Open Training Session di GBK.

hari ini seminggu yang lalu, gue lagi dag-dig-dug-ser nungguin malem nanti, dimana gue bakal nonton Indonesia Dream Team v Arsenal FC.

gue blm lama jadi supporter-nya  Arsenal. musim  2013/2014 bakal jadi musim ke 4 gue. gue tau ini baru awal-awal masa menjadi-supporter-Arsenal gue, but i’m enjoying every second of it. gue sayang banget sama klub gue (and everything that comes around with it), and i can’t see the universe without me supporting the club.

gue emang baru jadi supporter Arsenal, tapi i’ve always been an Indonesia National Team fan. and i’ll always be. Indonesia itu Tanah Air, Kewarganegaraan, Darah dan Cinta yang akan selalu jadi bagian dari diri gue. i’m a proud Indonesian and i’ll stand for my country no matter who’ll try to come and steal my heart away.

so long story short, Arsenal ngumumin mereka bakal ke Indonesia dalam rangka Arsenal Asia Tour 2013. boi, i was screaming and jumping my butts off at that very moment! i was at school but who the heck cares, i was just TOO happy. gue langsung kalap menabung dan daydreaming tentang hari mereka dateng kesini.

penantian panjang pun berakhir. mereka mendarat di Lanud Halim sekitar jam 15:30 WIB. gue udah nangkring di Departure Gate (setelah digusur dari Arrival Gate) dari jam 13:00. gila! gue langsung disesaki perasaan terharu waktu baru sampe dan ngeliat itu lorong penuh sama sodara-sodara gooners yang lengkap berjersey dan siap berdiri ampe polio buat nunggu Arsenal. semua udah ready didepan gate, penuh sesak tapi excited. daripada bosen, kita mutusin buat nge-chants dan asli, i was THIS close from crying. gue terharu, seneng dan bangga bisa ada ditengah-tengan ribuan orang yang punya perasaan sama kayak gue toward the club. rasanya kayak, wow i just found the place where i belong.  

setelah terlunta beberapa jam tanpa penjelasan (mereka harusnya mendarat jam 13:30), ada seorang petugas yang bilang kalo Arsenal gak keluar lewat sini, tapi disono (somewhere i  couldn’t really say where). pindahlah gue dengan pertanyaan ‘bener gak nih bapak’. tiba-tiba segerombolan orang yang diri ngadep landasan, teriak histeris. DAMN, i got up and ran. setelah berjibaku ngedorong orang biar bisa ngeliat, i saw the plane and some people but not recognizing anyone.

gue memutuskan buat lari ke arah barat, kira-kira 500 meter dari tempat gue berdiri. shit, disana udah ada ribuan gooners, berdiri dan bergerombol bikin jalan buat bis club yang bakal lewat. i made my way just in time.

tiba-tiba, kedengaran teriakan histeris dari gerombolan depan. hell, the bus was coming out! ada 2 bus, bus pertama isinya pemain + le boss dan bus kedua isinya staff-staff. setelah gak sadarkan diri karena terlalu histeris, bus pertama lewat didepan gue. i was screaming and jumping and calling out names. orang pertama yang gue liat itu Poldi. trus Alex, Ryo, Eisfield, Lukasz dan Woj. di bus kedua gue tetep histeris walaupun gue gatau siapa mereka dan apa yang mereka lakuin buat klub. gue histeris bukan karena kebawa suasana bus pertama, tapi karna gue tau mereka somehow berjasa buat klub kesayangan gue. jadi gue histeris aja..

setelah mereka lewat, gue istirahat bentar buat mulihin pikiran yang barusan shaken too much dan tenggorokan yang kering kerontang. rasanya bahaya buat nyetir dalam keadaan begitu. setelah dirasa cukup sadarkan diri, gue pulang.

(bersambung)

different kid, different way.

iya gue tau ini jam 3 pagi. gue juga tau lo semua jam tidurnya pada acak-acakan juga kan gara-gara libur kelamaan????!!!

udah beberapa bulan ini mata gue terlunta, meminta tidur tetapi tak sanggup ku penuhi.. *abaikan*
emang sih tiap liburan, gue selalu tidur jam 1 malem, tapi sekarang gue tidur jam 5 subuh dan bangun jam 12 siang! gue udah lama gak liat sinar matahari, apalagi matahari department store.
gue jadi pemalas banget. abis bangun tidur gue males mandi, males jalan dan bahkan males ganti baju buat jemput adek gue yang sekarang udah selesai liburan sekolahnya. saking malesnya, udh seminggu ini gue selalu jemput dia pake rok sma gue yang abu-abu itu. rasanya mau angkat kaki buat pake jeans tuh harus usaha banget, ugh.

karena jam tidur gue adalah antara jam 5 subuh sampe jam 12 siang, pas jam orang normal tidur ya gue aktif melakukan berbagai hal-hal yang mostly gapenting.

malem ini gue abisin dengan chat sama beberapa orang teman, salah satunya panggil saja syifa (nama tidak disamarkan). kayak chat-chat malam (dan siang) sebelom-sebelomnya, omongan kami gaada yang penting. sama kayak idup kami akhir-akhir ini, gapenting. gue sama syifa ngomongin berbagai hal-hal murahan tanpa makna sampe tiba-tiba ada sesuatu yang nyentil otak gue.

gue baru sadar, sahabat-sahabat yang gue punya dikirim sama Allah buat ngasih gue rasa yang beda-beda. mereka semua sahabat gue, tapi dengan cara mereka yang beda-beda buat bikin gue nyaman sama mereka.

misalnya syifa, gue nyaman sama dia karna gue bisa cerita apa aja bahkan sampe hal paling gapenting di dunia pun, tanpa harus acually ketemu dia. she comforts me through text in the way that i can't actually explain.
trus falisha, gue nyaman cerita sama dia tapi harus face to face karna gatau kenapa kalo lewat teks tuh capek aja ceritanya dan rasanya pesannya gaakan nyampe karna mostly cerita kami itu hal-hal heboh yang butuh ekspresi muka langsung.
dan naila serta adhis dan beberapa orang lain yang kayaknya kl gue jelasin disini juga bakal jd panjang bgt.

mereka semua sahabat gue, mereka berharga buat gue dan gue sayang sama mereka. none of them are better than the other ones but they have their own mysterious ways to comfort me.

i guess i'm just one of those lucky girls havin her best friends around her.

:)

part 1 -- shaken

(before i say anything, i wanna tell you that there's a little time difference between when-i-should've-posted-this and when-i'm-actually-posting-this. so please, do me a favor. let's pretend that somehow i've posted this in July 19th, 2013 at 9 pm. sorry for this inconvenient, thank you and enjoy the show!)



it's funny how one little conversation could turn your whole world (and life) upside down. it's just unbelievable that one little convo could gives you such a huge impact for what will happen to you next.

i was here, laying in this very bed of mine 3 years ago. i don't really remember what happened at that very time but i can recall sitting in front of my tv to watch some news that i should write the stories about, later. i was excited (and scared) to go (again) to my new school the next day. i knew it was going to be fun and rough but at that very night, never in my mind i ever imagine of meeting a guy who'll say something to me and turn my whole goddamn life upside down.

that guy didn't say much. 12 words. and the next thing i knew, i was a 15 year old girl and my whole life had just gone shaken. in a way that only God-knows-what could done.