gak kerasa gue udh hampir nyelesain 365 hari yang ke sekian kali di hidup gue. hari ini hari terakhir di dua ribu sebelas. besok, kita semua udah geser ke tahun dua ribu dua belas. kayak biasa, gue selalu ngerasa asing sama kata-kata taun setelah taun ini. mungkin karna gak biasa kali ya.
buat gue, gak terlalu banyak hal-hal istimewa di taun 2011 ini. ya, ada sih beberapa, tapi gak banyak. bisa diitung pake jari lah. gak kayak taun 2009&2010 yang iiiiinnnnnndah bgt buat gue. gue mengawali taun ini dengan perasaan resah, karena gue baru ngambil raport semester satu di bulan januari, karena waktu temen-temen gue lagi nerima rapot mereka di hari pembagian rapot, gue udah berangkat ke spore buat liburan bareng keluarga gue. waktu gue terima rapot itu, gue merasa agak deg-degan tentang nilai&peringkat. dannn waktu gue buka, gue merasa agak gak percaya sama hasil rapot gue. sama peringkatnya, honestly. gue merasa kinerja gue di kls 10 semester satu tuh rendahan bgt. jelek deh pokoknya. tapi ternyata gue berhasil dapet nilai lumayan dan masuk 15 besar dikelas. gue jadi termotivasi buat masuk 10 besar di semester dua. yang ternyata berakhir gagal... gue malah turun 10 peringkat dari peringkat semester satu gue. gue..kecewa. apalagi di semester 3, gue sangat dikecewakan sama diri gue sendiri. gue dapet peringkat paling jelek seumur-umur gue sekolah. walaupun masih peringkat 20-an, tapi menurut gue itu jelek bgt!!! AAAAAARRRGGGGHHHHHH. gue hrs belajar lebih bener&lebih rajin ngerjain tugas di taun depan!! #2012resolution
nah, diawal taun 2011 juga, gue mulai ngerasain (lagi) yang namanya takut pisah sama temen sekelas. yaaa, kayak yang pernah gue post dulu tentang kls 10 gue, dalmatian. disitu bener-bener tergambar jelas betapa gue sayang sama mereka. tapi toh ternyata semua ketakutan ''jadi gak akrab lagi'' belom terbukti kok. kita msh akrab sampe sekarang. semoga itu akan terus berlangsung sampai taun-taun seterusnya.
ditaun ini, gue naik kelas ke kelas 11 dengan jurusan Ilmu Pengetahuan Sosial. gue emg udah mengimpikan jurusan ini sejak gue SD. gue udah tau, disinilah passion gue. gue ga akan survive di IPA. bukannya jadi pinter, yang ada gue malah bakal stress berat dan mungkin jadi orang paling bego di kelas IPA.
dikelas gue yang sekarang, gue bareng sama syifa, omar & nikel dari dalmatian. gue duduk sama syifa. disini, gue belom terlalu berbaur sama kelas gue. bisa dibilang, gue jadi agak ansos. sejak masuk dalmatian, gue jd agak susah bersosialisasi sama orang luar. entah kenapa..
hmmm gue berharap bisa lebih berbaur sama anak-anak XI-IPS-2 di 2012. #2012wish
dua ribu sebelas, taun dimana gue pertama kali ngerasain yang namanya patah hati. the real broken heart. gue pernah juga kan ngepost tentang cowok ini, tentang perasaan gue ke dia dan gimana gue patah hati, juga gimana ''sengatan listrik'' itu ilang. dari semua kejadian ditaun ini, kejadian patah hati sama si doi ini lah yang paling berkesan, dan membekas. kenapa ya, mungkin karna ini kali pertama gue ngerasain kayak begini. gue gapernah merasa 'sedalam' itu, belom pernah mengharap setinggi itu. he's the best thing that never been mine. kalo inget kejadian patah hati itu, rasanya pgn bgt gue lari-lari ke MTV Office dan guling-guling ke produsernya buat minta bikinin gue ''16 and broken heart''. itu pasti cool bgt!! jadi nanti si peserta ini nyeritain dari awal gimana dia bisa suka sama gebetan dia, trs gmn dia bisa jatuh cinta sm org itu, dan gimana akhirnya dia 'patah'. dan semua kejadian itu diperanin sama actor&actris terkenal sebagai simulatornya. trs nanti ada psikolog yg ngasih tau gmn cara ngatasinnya. aaaah itu pasti kerrren bgt. #2012wish
kejadian menarik di 2011 yang lain itu... gue dan bbrp temen kls 10 gue (adhis, falisha & naila) secara gak sengaja ngediriin sebuah perkumpulan kecil. sebut aja namanya 'majelis'. gue gak akan ngejelasin apa itu majelis, apa yang kita lakuin bareng majelis dan lain-lain. tapi yang pasti, majelis itu seru. kalo lagi suntuk dan ikut majelis, beeeeh buyar semua kesuntukan, digantiin sama kehebohan. huahahaha. siapa aja boleh ikut majelis, tapi anggota tetapnya ya cuma kita ber4. adhis sebagai ketua, naila sebagai wakil, falisha sebagai penulis naskah, dan gue sebagai tim kreatif. ohiya, dan omar sebagai sample. penasaran kan apa itu majelis dan apa aja kegiatan kita? mengkanya, ayo gabung!! #intermezzo
oiya, ditaun ini juga gue ngerasain yang namanya nano-nano gara-gara bola. club bola kesayangan gue, Arsenal FC, memulai musim 2011/12 ini dengan sangat buruk. sedih bgt deh liat mereka terpuruk. rasanya sakit waktu liat mereka kalah di banyak pertandingan, dan jadi bahan hinaan&cercaan banyak orang. yang paling sedih adalah waktu Arsenal harus kehilangan 3 pemain bintang mereka, Cesc Fabregas, Samir Nasri & Gael Clichy. sebagai fan Arsenal, gue tentu sangat sedih dengan kepindahan mereka. apalagi, bukan cuma mereka bertiga aja yang pindah. tapi mereka pemain yang sangat vital. yang bikin gue makin frustate, fabregas adalah idola favorite gue. he's the first person that made me love football. kalo bukan karna fabregas, gue gaakan ngerti apa-apa soal bola. gara-gara gue suka dia, gue jadi nyari tau semua ttg dia, dan akhirnya gue banyak tau&ngerti banyak soal bola. gak cuma ttg dia&arsenal&spain national team, tapi ttg sepakbola secara universal.
''he's the person who made me love Arsenal, but he left. and my love for Arsenal remains. no player is bigger than the club.''
masih banyak kejadian-kejadian menarik di 2011 yang gue alamin. tapi ya kejadian-kejadian diatas adalah kejadian paling istimewa buat gue.
i hope, 2012 will be better year than this year.
Allah bless you all, Bismillah for everything!!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
no boom
udah lama gak ngepost. there were so many things that happened to me in that period of time. i wanna share sumthin' but i dunno what's that. i dunno how and i don't feel like it all were interesting to be told. my life is kinda flat these days. there was no extraordinary thing that happened in my life. i felt lil' bit empty. oh, i'm feeling it now. yea, there were absolutely sumthin' great in those flat days, but it wasn't sumthin' special. just hangin' out with my fellas, just staying at my room, just doing my diet, just helping my mum to get our house clean bcos my maid is coming back to her home for a moment. yea, there were nothin' boom.
i'm so bored right now. dunno what to do. dunno what to share. kinda frustating, feels like i don't wanna meet any of my schoolmate, this holiday.
but i know one thing.
I NEED SOMETHIN' NEW.
IN MY LIFE.
i'm so bored right now. dunno what to do. dunno what to share. kinda frustating, feels like i don't wanna meet any of my schoolmate, this holiday.
but i know one thing.
I NEED SOMETHIN' NEW.
IN MY LIFE.
Friday, November 18, 2011
gangerti.
kepercayaan. lo semua pasti tau apa artinya percaya. percaya; menurut sebuah link yang gue temukan di google; adalah harapan dan keyakinan (akan kejujuran, kebaikan, dsb). selama lo hidup, lo pasti pernah percaya sama sesuatu/seseorang. misalnya di agama islam, lo wajib percaya bahwa Allah itu ada, Malaikat itu nyata, dan sebagainya. tapi selain percaya sama hal yang barusan gue sebut, tentunya lo juga pernah (atau masih) percaya sama orang-orang disekitar lo. entah itu keluarga, temen-temen, atau mungkin sama orang jauh entah dimana yang ngasih lo berita tentang pemain bola kesukaan lo. lo yakin mereka jujur, karena lo percaya. lo berani ceritain rahasia lo ke temen-temen lo, karena lo percaya kalo mereka bakal ngejaga itu. tapi, mistake is human being. sebagai manusia, orang-orang yang lo percaya pasti pernah bikin salah, dan salah satunya mungkin adalah membocorkan rahasia lo, entah itu sengaja atau enggak, entah itu rahasia penting atau bukan. nah, tipe orang pun berbeda-beda, ada yang santai aja kalo rahasianya bocor, ada yang panik banget sampe musuhan, dan ada juga yang walaupun dalem hati sebel, tapi masih berusaha memaafkan. i dunno which type i am.
tapi, gimana kalo ternya lo adalah tipe orang yang gak gampang percaya sama manusia lain, terutama teman yang pastinya berawal dari orang asing? gimana kalo lo adalah orang yang selalu mempertimbangkan segalanya masak-masak sebelom membagi cerita ke orang-orang tersebut? dan gimana, ketika lo udah menemukan salah satu dari orang itu, lo cerita sama dia, dan (gue gatau dia beruntung atau gue yang sial) dia dapet rahasia gue yang menurut gue lumayan besar dan gue gamau itu kesebar, ke siapapun. dan jujur, sejak gue cerita itu ke dia, gue selalu merasa takut, takut dia bakal ngasih tau itu ke orang lain, takut kalo ternyata dia adalah orang yang salah buat rahasia gue. kadang, gue nyesel pernah ngebagi rahasia. tapi gue masih mikir kalo dia gamungkin segeblek itu buat bocorin itu. and, that day was coming. hari yang gue takutin pun akhirnya dateng. he shared it to some of my friends. and i was dissapointed. totally dissapointed. but i tried to throw those angers away. but since that day, gue merasa sangat kesulitan buat cerita ke orang lain. tentang apapun yang berhubungan sama privasi gue. even the tiniest story. dan rasanya gaenak. banget. nyiksa, yeah. kayak ada cairan item di hati lo yang biasanya bisa lo keluarin tapi sekarang ketahan. dan itu nyakitin di dalem. tapi lo gatau apa yg harus lo lakuin buat ngeluarin itu. tapi gue usaha buat ngeluarin itu. sampe akhirnya ketakutan itu mulai pelan-pelan ilang. gue mulai berani cerita lagi ke orang lain. AND ONE DAY, the same person that ever told ur secret to some else was TELLING ANOTHER SECRET OF YOURS di jejaring sosial dia yang tidak di protect, beserta mention ke twitter lo. rasanya kayak, lo pengen lari kerumahnya, jambak rambutnya dan nginjek punggung dia sampe mati.
gue udah gangerti lagi. sekarang takutnya makin parah. gangerti gmn nyembuhinnya.
tapi, gimana kalo ternya lo adalah tipe orang yang gak gampang percaya sama manusia lain, terutama teman yang pastinya berawal dari orang asing? gimana kalo lo adalah orang yang selalu mempertimbangkan segalanya masak-masak sebelom membagi cerita ke orang-orang tersebut? dan gimana, ketika lo udah menemukan salah satu dari orang itu, lo cerita sama dia, dan (gue gatau dia beruntung atau gue yang sial) dia dapet rahasia gue yang menurut gue lumayan besar dan gue gamau itu kesebar, ke siapapun. dan jujur, sejak gue cerita itu ke dia, gue selalu merasa takut, takut dia bakal ngasih tau itu ke orang lain, takut kalo ternyata dia adalah orang yang salah buat rahasia gue. kadang, gue nyesel pernah ngebagi rahasia. tapi gue masih mikir kalo dia gamungkin segeblek itu buat bocorin itu. and, that day was coming. hari yang gue takutin pun akhirnya dateng. he shared it to some of my friends. and i was dissapointed. totally dissapointed. but i tried to throw those angers away. but since that day, gue merasa sangat kesulitan buat cerita ke orang lain. tentang apapun yang berhubungan sama privasi gue. even the tiniest story. dan rasanya gaenak. banget. nyiksa, yeah. kayak ada cairan item di hati lo yang biasanya bisa lo keluarin tapi sekarang ketahan. dan itu nyakitin di dalem. tapi lo gatau apa yg harus lo lakuin buat ngeluarin itu. tapi gue usaha buat ngeluarin itu. sampe akhirnya ketakutan itu mulai pelan-pelan ilang. gue mulai berani cerita lagi ke orang lain. AND ONE DAY, the same person that ever told ur secret to some else was TELLING ANOTHER SECRET OF YOURS di jejaring sosial dia yang tidak di protect, beserta mention ke twitter lo. rasanya kayak, lo pengen lari kerumahnya, jambak rambutnya dan nginjek punggung dia sampe mati.
gue udah gangerti lagi. sekarang takutnya makin parah. gangerti gmn nyembuhinnya.
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| i need help. |
Monday, October 31, 2011
got this from tumblr.
I DARE YOU TO ANSWER THESE 102 QUESTIONS.
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? -well, i dunno.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? -hmm, yes. but my crush is 16.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? -yesterday.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? -why not?
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? -apologize first, next step is depending on their reaction.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? -yes, ''terlalu - maliq''
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? -omg, towel.
8. How often do you listen to music? -at least 7hours a day.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? -jeans
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? -wallahualam.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? -social but ansos sometime.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’?
13. What about ‘S’? -i dont really remember, but i think, no i'm not.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
16. Are you going out of town soon?
17. When was the last time you cried?
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? -i've told my crush, i loved him.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
24. What are you sitting on right now?
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? -yes, my right now crush.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
30. Does anyone hate you?
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
35. Did you have a dream last night? -yes, about someone called cute pig. *lirik syifa*
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? 20 06 11
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
40. Did you have a good day yesterday? -not really.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
44. What’s the best part about school? -friends.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? -hmmmm yap.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? -sometimes.
48. Were you single over the last summer? -yesh.
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? -no.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? -take a bath.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? -no.
52. Are you nice to everyone? -hmmm, ask my friends.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? -hahahaha, i never expect would liked one of my friend, and i ended up love him.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? -yessshhhhh.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? -sometimes.
56. Do you think you like someone? -maybe, it's complicated.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’? -no.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? -boys, but girls are okay if they are not bawel and caper.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? -yes.
60. Do you hate anyone? -currently, yes.
61. How’s your heart? -complicated right now.
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? -yes.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy? -please dont tell anyone, but yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? -maybe my dumb ass sister.
65. Are your toenails painted pink? -no.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? -i wish, it wont be.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? -no, i hate it.
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? -no..
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? -i dont remember.
70. How do you look right now? -normally.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? -Alhamdulillah, yes.
72. Can you commit to one person? -insya Allah
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? -dwiki priyadel.
74. Have you ever felt replaced? -ofcourse, yea.
75. Did you wake up cranky? -hmmm, dunno.
76. Are you a jealous person? -sometimes.
77. Are relationships ever worth it? -yes.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on? -my crush.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone? -CESC
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? -nothing.
81. Last person you cried in front of? -syifa&omar
82. Is there someone you will never forget? -yeah, there's some people i wont ever forget.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? -no.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? -saying Alhamdulillah.
85. Are you over your past? -yeah.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? -no, they became my bestie after i moved on.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? -probably yes, but i'm in the mode of not trusting anyone.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? -ERRRR ABSOLUTELY.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? -AHAHAHAHA, ofcourse.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? -yeeeeaaahhhhh.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? -i dunno
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? -no
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? -no.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? -no i'm not.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? -i probably would be happy if he was with me, but well.. he is someone else's.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? -a little bit.
97. Who do you have texts from? -my friends, and my operator.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? -congrats dude!! i wish she could make u so happy.*big smile*
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? -yes
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? -my friends
101. Ever kissed under fireworks? -not yet
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? -yes, my crush.
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? -well, i dunno.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? -hmm, yes. but my crush is 16.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? -yesterday.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? -why not?
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? -apologize first, next step is depending on their reaction.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? -yes, ''terlalu - maliq''
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? -omg, towel.
8. How often do you listen to music? -at least 7hours a day.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? -jeans
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? -wallahualam.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? -social but ansos sometime.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’?
13. What about ‘S’? -i dont really remember, but i think, no i'm not.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
16. Are you going out of town soon?
17. When was the last time you cried?
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? -i've told my crush, i loved him.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
24. What are you sitting on right now?
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? -yes, my right now crush.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
30. Does anyone hate you?
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
35. Did you have a dream last night? -yes, about someone called cute pig. *lirik syifa*
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? 20 06 11
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
40. Did you have a good day yesterday? -not really.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
44. What’s the best part about school? -friends.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? -hmmmm yap.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? -sometimes.
48. Were you single over the last summer? -yesh.
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? -no.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? -take a bath.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? -no.
52. Are you nice to everyone? -hmmm, ask my friends.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? -hahahaha, i never expect would liked one of my friend, and i ended up love him.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? -yessshhhhh.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? -sometimes.
56. Do you think you like someone? -maybe, it's complicated.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’? -no.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? -boys, but girls are okay if they are not bawel and caper.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? -yes.
60. Do you hate anyone? -currently, yes.
61. How’s your heart? -complicated right now.
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? -yes.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy? -please dont tell anyone, but yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? -maybe my dumb ass sister.
65. Are your toenails painted pink? -no.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? -i wish, it wont be.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? -no, i hate it.
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? -no..
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? -i dont remember.
70. How do you look right now? -normally.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? -Alhamdulillah, yes.
72. Can you commit to one person? -insya Allah
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? -dwiki priyadel.
74. Have you ever felt replaced? -ofcourse, yea.
75. Did you wake up cranky? -hmmm, dunno.
76. Are you a jealous person? -sometimes.
77. Are relationships ever worth it? -yes.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on? -my crush.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone? -CESC
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? -nothing.
81. Last person you cried in front of? -syifa&omar
82. Is there someone you will never forget? -yeah, there's some people i wont ever forget.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? -no.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? -saying Alhamdulillah.
85. Are you over your past? -yeah.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? -no, they became my bestie after i moved on.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? -probably yes, but i'm in the mode of not trusting anyone.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? -ERRRR ABSOLUTELY.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? -AHAHAHAHA, ofcourse.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? -yeeeeaaahhhhh.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? -i dunno
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? -no
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? -no.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? -no i'm not.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? -i probably would be happy if he was with me, but well.. he is someone else's.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? -a little bit.
97. Who do you have texts from? -my friends, and my operator.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? -congrats dude!! i wish she could make u so happy.*big smile*
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? -yes
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? -my friends
101. Ever kissed under fireworks? -not yet
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? -yes, my crush.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
sesuka lo.
suka. lo semua pasti tau kan apa itu''suka''? well, gak semua ''suka'' itu sifatnya positif. kalo lo ''suka'' nonjok, atau ''suka'' ngebunuh orang, gaenak juga kan jdnya. tapi intinya lo semua pasti tau ''suka''. dan yg skrg mau gue omongin itu, ttg ''suka'' yg positif. lebih spesifiknya, suka sama lawan jenis.
nah, sebelomnya gue gapernah kepikiran soal ini, apalagi buat dipost di blog. tapi tadi gara-gara gue ngobrol soal ''suka-sukaan'' sama nadiyah di motor, gue jd kepikiran. lucu ya, rasa ''suka'' ke lawan jenis itu bisa dtg dr mana aja, bisa mulai dari kayak gmn aja. bisa gara-gara ditemenin di 711 abis buka puasa, bisa gara-gara ditanyain udh bikin peer apa belom, bisa gara-gara sering diajak chat, bisa gara-gara gebetan lamanya selalu nyakitin dia, bisa gara-gara dikasih bunga pas drama, bisa gara-gara merasa familiar sm muka dia dan akhirnya malah kecantol beneran, atau yang paling kocak: suka gara-gara pernah satu angkot. ya intinya rasa suka itu bisa tumbuh dr siapa aja, kapan aja, dan dimana aja.
gue punya bbrp pengalaman suka sama cowok yang proses awalnya tuh rada abnormal. waktu kls 7, di smabel tuh ada pendidikan paskibra dasar pas mos, nah waktu itu giliran kls gue yg dpt pendidikan itu, trs gue iseng nyari-nyari kakak paskib yg ganteng, dan gue dipaksa kecewa karna ternyata gaada, eeeeh tiba-tiba....datanglah seorang kakak paskib cowok kls 9 dr kejauhan, sambil lari-lari gara-gara dtgnya kesiangan, dan lucky me: dia ngelatih kls gue. di kacamata gue, dia tuh ganteng. manis, badannya semok gitu. tapi bukan itu yg bikin gue punya rasa yg tak biasa, waktu lagi latihan hormat, gue yg cuma anak bawang yg gangerti apa-apa, salah cara hormatnya. dan dia sebagai kakak pelatih pun membantu gue buat benerin posisi tangan gue. dia..megang..tangan..gue. AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kapan lagi kan, bs dipegang sama orang ganteng!!! nah, sejak kejadian itu akhirnya gue jadi suka ngeliatin dia, walaupun (pastinya) secara diam-diam. biasanya sih, gue liatin dia dr lantai 3, waktu dia br dtg pas pagi. nah rasa suka inituh juga bikin kewarasan gue agak sedikit berkurang. suatu hari, gue pernah liat si kakak bawa tempat minum berwarna ijo, dan sejak hari itu, gue jd suka beli barang2 warna ijo, dan akhirnya gue suka ijo, sampe skrg ._. (end of story: 1)
cerita suka-sukaan konyol yang selanjutnya tuh waktu gue kelas 8. jadi waktu itu, guru bahasa indo gue nyuruh sekelas buat bikin drama, nah itukan dibagi berkelompok. nah, gue sekelompok sama orang yang dicerita ini adalah gebetan gue. tapi sebelom drama itu, gue gaada perasaan apa-apa. jadi..drama kelompok gue itu ada adegan si gebetan gue itu (sebut saja: Y) nembak gue pake bunga dan lagu derby romero yg judulnya ada asmara-asmaranya itu. sebenernya sih sampe drama selesai pun, gue msh biasa aja. sampe akhirnya........... (jengjengjengjenggg) abs pulang sekolah setelah drama itu, gue main kerumah temen gue bernama nadya, kita naik angkot, nah diangkot itu gue kan msh bawa2 bunga mawarnya, trs gue dicengin-cengin kan, dan tbtb gue jd ngerasa ada ''kupu-kupu'' diperut gue saat itu juga, dan yap...gue jd suka sm dia beneran. lama loh sukanya!! #penting. dan he's one of the person i ever liked and will never be forgotten. duh, kenangan selama 9bulan suka itu sweet-sweet bangettt :3 oiya, gue mulai suka sama dia itu tanggal 9 januari 2009. (end of story: 2)
nah cerita ketiga dan terakhir. sebenernya ini bukan perasaan suka yang dirasain di hati, tapi lebih ke nyenengin mata aja. jadi, waktu itu gue diminta buat ikut LDKS 68 2011-2012. nah wkt disana tuh ada acara debat buat anak kls 10-nya, kebetulan gue dan temen gue, andri, diminta jd pengawas debat antara kelompok 1 dan kelompok 2. waktu lagi enak2 sok galak, gue merasa familiar sama muka salah satu anak di kelompok 1, namanya hmmm duh censored aja deh ya, sebut aja deku. gue tanya, dia sekolah dmn, dia blg di al-azhar, nah gue gak merasa punya kenalan di al-azhar. trs gue tanya punya kakak gak, siapa tau gue kenal kakaknya kan, trs dia blg dia punya, tapi ternyata gue gakenal juga. nah sejak itu gue jd suka ngeliatin dia, abs mukanya imut bgt. tapi sampe skrg gue msh gatau knp gue bisa ngerasa familiar sm mukanya ._. oiya, bibirnya dia tebel loh (‾̴̴͡͡•‾̴̴͡͡) #abaikan (end of story: 3)
selain asal muasalnya yg kadang gajelas, rasa suka juga bisa nyulap lo jadi orang yang rada abnormal. kalo lo lagi suka sama orang, lo bisa banget jadi ngelakuin hal-hal aneh/gila/kurang kerjaan atau ya intinya kalo org normal liat, tuh gak normal, tentang org yg lo sukain. misalnya lo jadi suka buka timeline org yg lo suka dalam frekuensi sering didalem satu hari, atau lo jadi tau hal-hal ttg dia sampe sedetail2nya. misalnya: tau warna kesukaan adeknya, majalah langganan bapaknya, resep favorit ibunya, atau mungkin warna daleman pembantunya. ya intinya lo selalu pgn tau apa aja yg berhubungan sama si doi. dan kalo lo suka sama orang, itu efektif bgt buat ningkatin rasa malu lo, padahal biasanya lo tipe org yg bodo amatan.
tapiii selain nyebabin rasa seneng, "suka" juga bisa banget bikin lo kecewa. ya biasanya sih karena akhir kisah lo sama si doi gak berujung sesuai harapan. hmmm selo ajalah kalo cuma suka doang. yang repot ya kalo udah lebih dr suka..... hm. gue saranin, pinter-pinter deh jaga hati. kalo masih umur segini, mending batesin perasaan lo, jgn sampe lebih dr suka. tapi sebenernya u cant control ur feeling sih, kalo tiba-tiba lo fall in love, diri lo sendiri pun gaakan bisa ngehindarin itu. jadi nikmatin aja. kalo sakit, jalanin aja, nanti juga ilang sendiri. :D
nah segitu ajadeh post tentang suka-sukaan gue, gue tau ini sebenernya gapenting ._. makasih loh kalo udh luangin waktunya buat baca!
"u kno u're fall in love, when finally reality is much better than ur dream."
nah, sebelomnya gue gapernah kepikiran soal ini, apalagi buat dipost di blog. tapi tadi gara-gara gue ngobrol soal ''suka-sukaan'' sama nadiyah di motor, gue jd kepikiran. lucu ya, rasa ''suka'' ke lawan jenis itu bisa dtg dr mana aja, bisa mulai dari kayak gmn aja. bisa gara-gara ditemenin di 711 abis buka puasa, bisa gara-gara ditanyain udh bikin peer apa belom, bisa gara-gara sering diajak chat, bisa gara-gara gebetan lamanya selalu nyakitin dia, bisa gara-gara dikasih bunga pas drama, bisa gara-gara merasa familiar sm muka dia dan akhirnya malah kecantol beneran, atau yang paling kocak: suka gara-gara pernah satu angkot. ya intinya rasa suka itu bisa tumbuh dr siapa aja, kapan aja, dan dimana aja.
gue punya bbrp pengalaman suka sama cowok yang proses awalnya tuh rada abnormal. waktu kls 7, di smabel tuh ada pendidikan paskibra dasar pas mos, nah waktu itu giliran kls gue yg dpt pendidikan itu, trs gue iseng nyari-nyari kakak paskib yg ganteng, dan gue dipaksa kecewa karna ternyata gaada, eeeeh tiba-tiba....datanglah seorang kakak paskib cowok kls 9 dr kejauhan, sambil lari-lari gara-gara dtgnya kesiangan, dan lucky me: dia ngelatih kls gue. di kacamata gue, dia tuh ganteng. manis, badannya semok gitu. tapi bukan itu yg bikin gue punya rasa yg tak biasa, waktu lagi latihan hormat, gue yg cuma anak bawang yg gangerti apa-apa, salah cara hormatnya. dan dia sebagai kakak pelatih pun membantu gue buat benerin posisi tangan gue. dia..megang..tangan..gue. AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kapan lagi kan, bs dipegang sama orang ganteng!!! nah, sejak kejadian itu akhirnya gue jadi suka ngeliatin dia, walaupun (pastinya) secara diam-diam. biasanya sih, gue liatin dia dr lantai 3, waktu dia br dtg pas pagi. nah rasa suka inituh juga bikin kewarasan gue agak sedikit berkurang. suatu hari, gue pernah liat si kakak bawa tempat minum berwarna ijo, dan sejak hari itu, gue jd suka beli barang2 warna ijo, dan akhirnya gue suka ijo, sampe skrg ._. (end of story: 1)
cerita suka-sukaan konyol yang selanjutnya tuh waktu gue kelas 8. jadi waktu itu, guru bahasa indo gue nyuruh sekelas buat bikin drama, nah itukan dibagi berkelompok. nah, gue sekelompok sama orang yang dicerita ini adalah gebetan gue. tapi sebelom drama itu, gue gaada perasaan apa-apa. jadi..drama kelompok gue itu ada adegan si gebetan gue itu (sebut saja: Y) nembak gue pake bunga dan lagu derby romero yg judulnya ada asmara-asmaranya itu. sebenernya sih sampe drama selesai pun, gue msh biasa aja. sampe akhirnya........... (jengjengjengjenggg) abs pulang sekolah setelah drama itu, gue main kerumah temen gue bernama nadya, kita naik angkot, nah diangkot itu gue kan msh bawa2 bunga mawarnya, trs gue dicengin-cengin kan, dan tbtb gue jd ngerasa ada ''kupu-kupu'' diperut gue saat itu juga, dan yap...gue jd suka sm dia beneran. lama loh sukanya!! #penting. dan he's one of the person i ever liked and will never be forgotten. duh, kenangan selama 9bulan suka itu sweet-sweet bangettt :3 oiya, gue mulai suka sama dia itu tanggal 9 januari 2009. (end of story: 2)
nah cerita ketiga dan terakhir. sebenernya ini bukan perasaan suka yang dirasain di hati, tapi lebih ke nyenengin mata aja. jadi, waktu itu gue diminta buat ikut LDKS 68 2011-2012. nah wkt disana tuh ada acara debat buat anak kls 10-nya, kebetulan gue dan temen gue, andri, diminta jd pengawas debat antara kelompok 1 dan kelompok 2. waktu lagi enak2 sok galak, gue merasa familiar sama muka salah satu anak di kelompok 1, namanya hmmm duh censored aja deh ya, sebut aja deku. gue tanya, dia sekolah dmn, dia blg di al-azhar, nah gue gak merasa punya kenalan di al-azhar. trs gue tanya punya kakak gak, siapa tau gue kenal kakaknya kan, trs dia blg dia punya, tapi ternyata gue gakenal juga. nah sejak itu gue jd suka ngeliatin dia, abs mukanya imut bgt. tapi sampe skrg gue msh gatau knp gue bisa ngerasa familiar sm mukanya ._. oiya, bibirnya dia tebel loh (‾̴̴͡͡•‾̴̴͡͡) #abaikan (end of story: 3)
selain asal muasalnya yg kadang gajelas, rasa suka juga bisa nyulap lo jadi orang yang rada abnormal. kalo lo lagi suka sama orang, lo bisa banget jadi ngelakuin hal-hal aneh/gila/kurang kerjaan atau ya intinya kalo org normal liat, tuh gak normal, tentang org yg lo sukain. misalnya lo jadi suka buka timeline org yg lo suka dalam frekuensi sering didalem satu hari, atau lo jadi tau hal-hal ttg dia sampe sedetail2nya. misalnya: tau warna kesukaan adeknya, majalah langganan bapaknya, resep favorit ibunya, atau mungkin warna daleman pembantunya. ya intinya lo selalu pgn tau apa aja yg berhubungan sama si doi. dan kalo lo suka sama orang, itu efektif bgt buat ningkatin rasa malu lo, padahal biasanya lo tipe org yg bodo amatan.
tapiii selain nyebabin rasa seneng, "suka" juga bisa banget bikin lo kecewa. ya biasanya sih karena akhir kisah lo sama si doi gak berujung sesuai harapan. hmmm selo ajalah kalo cuma suka doang. yang repot ya kalo udah lebih dr suka..... hm. gue saranin, pinter-pinter deh jaga hati. kalo masih umur segini, mending batesin perasaan lo, jgn sampe lebih dr suka. tapi sebenernya u cant control ur feeling sih, kalo tiba-tiba lo fall in love, diri lo sendiri pun gaakan bisa ngehindarin itu. jadi nikmatin aja. kalo sakit, jalanin aja, nanti juga ilang sendiri. :D
nah segitu ajadeh post tentang suka-sukaan gue, gue tau ini sebenernya gapenting ._. makasih loh kalo udh luangin waktunya buat baca!
"u kno u're fall in love, when finally reality is much better than ur dream."
Monday, October 17, 2011
*tertohok*
Im begging of you please don't take my man
Please don't take him just because you can
Your beauty is beyond compare
Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, jolene
He talks about you in his sleep
There's nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name,jolene
From crying when he calls your name,
And I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, jolene
You could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
But I could never love again
Hes the only one for me, jolene
I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, jolene
Im begging of you please don't take my man
Please don't take him even though you can
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Dengan terbuka
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Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya
Kau beri rasa
Yang berbeda
Mungkin ku salah
Mengartikannya
Yang ku rasa cinta
Yang berbeda
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Mengartikannya
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Tetapi hatiku
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Tuk melihatmu
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Dan tejatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang tak terjadi
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