gak kerasa gue udh hampir nyelesain 365 hari yang ke sekian kali di hidup gue. hari ini hari terakhir di dua ribu sebelas. besok, kita semua udah geser ke tahun dua ribu dua belas. kayak biasa, gue selalu ngerasa asing sama kata-kata taun setelah taun ini. mungkin karna gak biasa kali ya.
buat gue, gak terlalu banyak hal-hal istimewa di taun 2011 ini. ya, ada sih beberapa, tapi gak banyak. bisa diitung pake jari lah. gak kayak taun 2009&2010 yang iiiiinnnnnndah bgt buat gue. gue mengawali taun ini dengan perasaan resah, karena gue baru ngambil raport semester satu di bulan januari, karena waktu temen-temen gue lagi nerima rapot mereka di hari pembagian rapot, gue udah berangkat ke spore buat liburan bareng keluarga gue. waktu gue terima rapot itu, gue merasa agak deg-degan tentang nilai&peringkat. dannn waktu gue buka, gue merasa agak gak percaya sama hasil rapot gue. sama peringkatnya, honestly. gue merasa kinerja gue di kls 10 semester satu tuh rendahan bgt. jelek deh pokoknya. tapi ternyata gue berhasil dapet nilai lumayan dan masuk 15 besar dikelas. gue jadi termotivasi buat masuk 10 besar di semester dua. yang ternyata berakhir gagal... gue malah turun 10 peringkat dari peringkat semester satu gue. gue..kecewa. apalagi di semester 3, gue sangat dikecewakan sama diri gue sendiri. gue dapet peringkat paling jelek seumur-umur gue sekolah. walaupun masih peringkat 20-an, tapi menurut gue itu jelek bgt!!! AAAAAARRRGGGGHHHHHH. gue hrs belajar lebih bener&lebih rajin ngerjain tugas di taun depan!! #2012resolution
nah, diawal taun 2011 juga, gue mulai ngerasain (lagi) yang namanya takut pisah sama temen sekelas. yaaa, kayak yang pernah gue post dulu tentang kls 10 gue, dalmatian. disitu bener-bener tergambar jelas betapa gue sayang sama mereka. tapi toh ternyata semua ketakutan ''jadi gak akrab lagi'' belom terbukti kok. kita msh akrab sampe sekarang. semoga itu akan terus berlangsung sampai taun-taun seterusnya.
ditaun ini, gue naik kelas ke kelas 11 dengan jurusan Ilmu Pengetahuan Sosial. gue emg udah mengimpikan jurusan ini sejak gue SD. gue udah tau, disinilah passion gue. gue ga akan survive di IPA. bukannya jadi pinter, yang ada gue malah bakal stress berat dan mungkin jadi orang paling bego di kelas IPA.
dikelas gue yang sekarang, gue bareng sama syifa, omar & nikel dari dalmatian. gue duduk sama syifa. disini, gue belom terlalu berbaur sama kelas gue. bisa dibilang, gue jadi agak ansos. sejak masuk dalmatian, gue jd agak susah bersosialisasi sama orang luar. entah kenapa..
hmmm gue berharap bisa lebih berbaur sama anak-anak XI-IPS-2 di 2012. #2012wish
dua ribu sebelas, taun dimana gue pertama kali ngerasain yang namanya patah hati. the real broken heart. gue pernah juga kan ngepost tentang cowok ini, tentang perasaan gue ke dia dan gimana gue patah hati, juga gimana ''sengatan listrik'' itu ilang. dari semua kejadian ditaun ini, kejadian patah hati sama si doi ini lah yang paling berkesan, dan membekas. kenapa ya, mungkin karna ini kali pertama gue ngerasain kayak begini. gue gapernah merasa 'sedalam' itu, belom pernah mengharap setinggi itu. he's the best thing that never been mine. kalo inget kejadian patah hati itu, rasanya pgn bgt gue lari-lari ke MTV Office dan guling-guling ke produsernya buat minta bikinin gue ''16 and broken heart''. itu pasti cool bgt!! jadi nanti si peserta ini nyeritain dari awal gimana dia bisa suka sama gebetan dia, trs gmn dia bisa jatuh cinta sm org itu, dan gimana akhirnya dia 'patah'. dan semua kejadian itu diperanin sama actor&actris terkenal sebagai simulatornya. trs nanti ada psikolog yg ngasih tau gmn cara ngatasinnya. aaaah itu pasti kerrren bgt. #2012wish
kejadian menarik di 2011 yang lain itu... gue dan bbrp temen kls 10 gue (adhis, falisha & naila) secara gak sengaja ngediriin sebuah perkumpulan kecil. sebut aja namanya 'majelis'. gue gak akan ngejelasin apa itu majelis, apa yang kita lakuin bareng majelis dan lain-lain. tapi yang pasti, majelis itu seru. kalo lagi suntuk dan ikut majelis, beeeeh buyar semua kesuntukan, digantiin sama kehebohan. huahahaha. siapa aja boleh ikut majelis, tapi anggota tetapnya ya cuma kita ber4. adhis sebagai ketua, naila sebagai wakil, falisha sebagai penulis naskah, dan gue sebagai tim kreatif. ohiya, dan omar sebagai sample. penasaran kan apa itu majelis dan apa aja kegiatan kita? mengkanya, ayo gabung!! #intermezzo
oiya, ditaun ini juga gue ngerasain yang namanya nano-nano gara-gara bola. club bola kesayangan gue, Arsenal FC, memulai musim 2011/12 ini dengan sangat buruk. sedih bgt deh liat mereka terpuruk. rasanya sakit waktu liat mereka kalah di banyak pertandingan, dan jadi bahan hinaan&cercaan banyak orang. yang paling sedih adalah waktu Arsenal harus kehilangan 3 pemain bintang mereka, Cesc Fabregas, Samir Nasri & Gael Clichy. sebagai fan Arsenal, gue tentu sangat sedih dengan kepindahan mereka. apalagi, bukan cuma mereka bertiga aja yang pindah. tapi mereka pemain yang sangat vital. yang bikin gue makin frustate, fabregas adalah idola favorite gue. he's the first person that made me love football. kalo bukan karna fabregas, gue gaakan ngerti apa-apa soal bola. gara-gara gue suka dia, gue jadi nyari tau semua ttg dia, dan akhirnya gue banyak tau&ngerti banyak soal bola. gak cuma ttg dia&arsenal&spain national team, tapi ttg sepakbola secara universal.
''he's the person who made me love Arsenal, but he left. and my love for Arsenal remains. no player is bigger than the club.''
masih banyak kejadian-kejadian menarik di 2011 yang gue alamin. tapi ya kejadian-kejadian diatas adalah kejadian paling istimewa buat gue.
i hope, 2012 will be better year than this year.
Allah bless you all, Bismillah for everything!!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
no boom
udah lama gak ngepost. there were so many things that happened to me in that period of time. i wanna share sumthin' but i dunno what's that. i dunno how and i don't feel like it all were interesting to be told. my life is kinda flat these days. there was no extraordinary thing that happened in my life. i felt lil' bit empty. oh, i'm feeling it now. yea, there were absolutely sumthin' great in those flat days, but it wasn't sumthin' special. just hangin' out with my fellas, just staying at my room, just doing my diet, just helping my mum to get our house clean bcos my maid is coming back to her home for a moment. yea, there were nothin' boom.
i'm so bored right now. dunno what to do. dunno what to share. kinda frustating, feels like i don't wanna meet any of my schoolmate, this holiday.
but i know one thing.
I NEED SOMETHIN' NEW.
IN MY LIFE.
i'm so bored right now. dunno what to do. dunno what to share. kinda frustating, feels like i don't wanna meet any of my schoolmate, this holiday.
but i know one thing.
I NEED SOMETHIN' NEW.
IN MY LIFE.
Friday, November 18, 2011
gangerti.
kepercayaan. lo semua pasti tau apa artinya percaya. percaya; menurut sebuah link yang gue temukan di google; adalah harapan dan keyakinan (akan kejujuran, kebaikan, dsb). selama lo hidup, lo pasti pernah percaya sama sesuatu/seseorang. misalnya di agama islam, lo wajib percaya bahwa Allah itu ada, Malaikat itu nyata, dan sebagainya. tapi selain percaya sama hal yang barusan gue sebut, tentunya lo juga pernah (atau masih) percaya sama orang-orang disekitar lo. entah itu keluarga, temen-temen, atau mungkin sama orang jauh entah dimana yang ngasih lo berita tentang pemain bola kesukaan lo. lo yakin mereka jujur, karena lo percaya. lo berani ceritain rahasia lo ke temen-temen lo, karena lo percaya kalo mereka bakal ngejaga itu. tapi, mistake is human being. sebagai manusia, orang-orang yang lo percaya pasti pernah bikin salah, dan salah satunya mungkin adalah membocorkan rahasia lo, entah itu sengaja atau enggak, entah itu rahasia penting atau bukan. nah, tipe orang pun berbeda-beda, ada yang santai aja kalo rahasianya bocor, ada yang panik banget sampe musuhan, dan ada juga yang walaupun dalem hati sebel, tapi masih berusaha memaafkan. i dunno which type i am.
tapi, gimana kalo ternya lo adalah tipe orang yang gak gampang percaya sama manusia lain, terutama teman yang pastinya berawal dari orang asing? gimana kalo lo adalah orang yang selalu mempertimbangkan segalanya masak-masak sebelom membagi cerita ke orang-orang tersebut? dan gimana, ketika lo udah menemukan salah satu dari orang itu, lo cerita sama dia, dan (gue gatau dia beruntung atau gue yang sial) dia dapet rahasia gue yang menurut gue lumayan besar dan gue gamau itu kesebar, ke siapapun. dan jujur, sejak gue cerita itu ke dia, gue selalu merasa takut, takut dia bakal ngasih tau itu ke orang lain, takut kalo ternyata dia adalah orang yang salah buat rahasia gue. kadang, gue nyesel pernah ngebagi rahasia. tapi gue masih mikir kalo dia gamungkin segeblek itu buat bocorin itu. and, that day was coming. hari yang gue takutin pun akhirnya dateng. he shared it to some of my friends. and i was dissapointed. totally dissapointed. but i tried to throw those angers away. but since that day, gue merasa sangat kesulitan buat cerita ke orang lain. tentang apapun yang berhubungan sama privasi gue. even the tiniest story. dan rasanya gaenak. banget. nyiksa, yeah. kayak ada cairan item di hati lo yang biasanya bisa lo keluarin tapi sekarang ketahan. dan itu nyakitin di dalem. tapi lo gatau apa yg harus lo lakuin buat ngeluarin itu. tapi gue usaha buat ngeluarin itu. sampe akhirnya ketakutan itu mulai pelan-pelan ilang. gue mulai berani cerita lagi ke orang lain. AND ONE DAY, the same person that ever told ur secret to some else was TELLING ANOTHER SECRET OF YOURS di jejaring sosial dia yang tidak di protect, beserta mention ke twitter lo. rasanya kayak, lo pengen lari kerumahnya, jambak rambutnya dan nginjek punggung dia sampe mati.
gue udah gangerti lagi. sekarang takutnya makin parah. gangerti gmn nyembuhinnya.
tapi, gimana kalo ternya lo adalah tipe orang yang gak gampang percaya sama manusia lain, terutama teman yang pastinya berawal dari orang asing? gimana kalo lo adalah orang yang selalu mempertimbangkan segalanya masak-masak sebelom membagi cerita ke orang-orang tersebut? dan gimana, ketika lo udah menemukan salah satu dari orang itu, lo cerita sama dia, dan (gue gatau dia beruntung atau gue yang sial) dia dapet rahasia gue yang menurut gue lumayan besar dan gue gamau itu kesebar, ke siapapun. dan jujur, sejak gue cerita itu ke dia, gue selalu merasa takut, takut dia bakal ngasih tau itu ke orang lain, takut kalo ternyata dia adalah orang yang salah buat rahasia gue. kadang, gue nyesel pernah ngebagi rahasia. tapi gue masih mikir kalo dia gamungkin segeblek itu buat bocorin itu. and, that day was coming. hari yang gue takutin pun akhirnya dateng. he shared it to some of my friends. and i was dissapointed. totally dissapointed. but i tried to throw those angers away. but since that day, gue merasa sangat kesulitan buat cerita ke orang lain. tentang apapun yang berhubungan sama privasi gue. even the tiniest story. dan rasanya gaenak. banget. nyiksa, yeah. kayak ada cairan item di hati lo yang biasanya bisa lo keluarin tapi sekarang ketahan. dan itu nyakitin di dalem. tapi lo gatau apa yg harus lo lakuin buat ngeluarin itu. tapi gue usaha buat ngeluarin itu. sampe akhirnya ketakutan itu mulai pelan-pelan ilang. gue mulai berani cerita lagi ke orang lain. AND ONE DAY, the same person that ever told ur secret to some else was TELLING ANOTHER SECRET OF YOURS di jejaring sosial dia yang tidak di protect, beserta mention ke twitter lo. rasanya kayak, lo pengen lari kerumahnya, jambak rambutnya dan nginjek punggung dia sampe mati.
gue udah gangerti lagi. sekarang takutnya makin parah. gangerti gmn nyembuhinnya.
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| i need help. |
Monday, October 31, 2011
got this from tumblr.
I DARE YOU TO ANSWER THESE 102 QUESTIONS.
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? -well, i dunno.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? -hmm, yes. but my crush is 16.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? -yesterday.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? -why not?
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? -apologize first, next step is depending on their reaction.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? -yes, ''terlalu - maliq''
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? -omg, towel.
8. How often do you listen to music? -at least 7hours a day.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? -jeans
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? -wallahualam.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? -social but ansos sometime.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’?
13. What about ‘S’? -i dont really remember, but i think, no i'm not.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
16. Are you going out of town soon?
17. When was the last time you cried?
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? -i've told my crush, i loved him.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
24. What are you sitting on right now?
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? -yes, my right now crush.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
30. Does anyone hate you?
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
35. Did you have a dream last night? -yes, about someone called cute pig. *lirik syifa*
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? 20 06 11
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
40. Did you have a good day yesterday? -not really.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
44. What’s the best part about school? -friends.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? -hmmmm yap.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? -sometimes.
48. Were you single over the last summer? -yesh.
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? -no.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? -take a bath.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? -no.
52. Are you nice to everyone? -hmmm, ask my friends.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? -hahahaha, i never expect would liked one of my friend, and i ended up love him.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? -yessshhhhh.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? -sometimes.
56. Do you think you like someone? -maybe, it's complicated.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’? -no.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? -boys, but girls are okay if they are not bawel and caper.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? -yes.
60. Do you hate anyone? -currently, yes.
61. How’s your heart? -complicated right now.
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? -yes.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy? -please dont tell anyone, but yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? -maybe my dumb ass sister.
65. Are your toenails painted pink? -no.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? -i wish, it wont be.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? -no, i hate it.
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? -no..
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? -i dont remember.
70. How do you look right now? -normally.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? -Alhamdulillah, yes.
72. Can you commit to one person? -insya Allah
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? -dwiki priyadel.
74. Have you ever felt replaced? -ofcourse, yea.
75. Did you wake up cranky? -hmmm, dunno.
76. Are you a jealous person? -sometimes.
77. Are relationships ever worth it? -yes.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on? -my crush.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone? -CESC
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? -nothing.
81. Last person you cried in front of? -syifa&omar
82. Is there someone you will never forget? -yeah, there's some people i wont ever forget.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? -no.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? -saying Alhamdulillah.
85. Are you over your past? -yeah.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? -no, they became my bestie after i moved on.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? -probably yes, but i'm in the mode of not trusting anyone.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? -ERRRR ABSOLUTELY.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? -AHAHAHAHA, ofcourse.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? -yeeeeaaahhhhh.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? -i dunno
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? -no
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? -no.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? -no i'm not.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? -i probably would be happy if he was with me, but well.. he is someone else's.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? -a little bit.
97. Who do you have texts from? -my friends, and my operator.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? -congrats dude!! i wish she could make u so happy.*big smile*
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? -yes
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? -my friends
101. Ever kissed under fireworks? -not yet
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? -yes, my crush.
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? -well, i dunno.
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? -hmm, yes. but my crush is 16.
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? -yesterday.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? -why not?
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? -apologize first, next step is depending on their reaction.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? -yes, ''terlalu - maliq''
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? -omg, towel.
8. How often do you listen to music? -at least 7hours a day.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? -jeans
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? -wallahualam.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? -social but ansos sometime.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘B’?
13. What about ‘S’? -i dont really remember, but i think, no i'm not.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
16. Are you going out of town soon?
17. When was the last time you cried?
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? -i've told my crush, i loved him.
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
24. What are you sitting on right now?
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? -yes, my right now crush.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
30. Does anyone hate you?
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
35. Did you have a dream last night? -yes, about someone called cute pig. *lirik syifa*
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? 20 06 11
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
40. Did you have a good day yesterday? -not really.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
44. What’s the best part about school? -friends.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? -hmmmm yap.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? -sometimes.
48. Were you single over the last summer? -yesh.
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? -no.
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? -take a bath.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? -no.
52. Are you nice to everyone? -hmmm, ask my friends.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? -hahahaha, i never expect would liked one of my friend, and i ended up love him.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? -yessshhhhh.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? -sometimes.
56. Do you think you like someone? -maybe, it's complicated.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘T’? -no.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? -boys, but girls are okay if they are not bawel and caper.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? -yes.
60. Do you hate anyone? -currently, yes.
61. How’s your heart? -complicated right now.
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? -yes.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy? -please dont tell anyone, but yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? -maybe my dumb ass sister.
65. Are your toenails painted pink? -no.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? -i wish, it wont be.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? -no, i hate it.
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? -no..
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? -i dont remember.
70. How do you look right now? -normally.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? -Alhamdulillah, yes.
72. Can you commit to one person? -insya Allah
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? -dwiki priyadel.
74. Have you ever felt replaced? -ofcourse, yea.
75. Did you wake up cranky? -hmmm, dunno.
76. Are you a jealous person? -sometimes.
77. Are relationships ever worth it? -yes.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on? -my crush.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone? -CESC
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? -nothing.
81. Last person you cried in front of? -syifa&omar
82. Is there someone you will never forget? -yeah, there's some people i wont ever forget.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? -no.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? -saying Alhamdulillah.
85. Are you over your past? -yeah.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? -no, they became my bestie after i moved on.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? -probably yes, but i'm in the mode of not trusting anyone.
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? -ERRRR ABSOLUTELY.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? -AHAHAHAHA, ofcourse.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? -yeeeeaaahhhhh.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? -i dunno
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? -no
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? -no.
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? -no i'm not.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? -i probably would be happy if he was with me, but well.. he is someone else's.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? -a little bit.
97. Who do you have texts from? -my friends, and my operator.
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? -congrats dude!! i wish she could make u so happy.*big smile*
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? -yes
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? -my friends
101. Ever kissed under fireworks? -not yet
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? -yes, my crush.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
sesuka lo.
suka. lo semua pasti tau kan apa itu''suka''? well, gak semua ''suka'' itu sifatnya positif. kalo lo ''suka'' nonjok, atau ''suka'' ngebunuh orang, gaenak juga kan jdnya. tapi intinya lo semua pasti tau ''suka''. dan yg skrg mau gue omongin itu, ttg ''suka'' yg positif. lebih spesifiknya, suka sama lawan jenis.
nah, sebelomnya gue gapernah kepikiran soal ini, apalagi buat dipost di blog. tapi tadi gara-gara gue ngobrol soal ''suka-sukaan'' sama nadiyah di motor, gue jd kepikiran. lucu ya, rasa ''suka'' ke lawan jenis itu bisa dtg dr mana aja, bisa mulai dari kayak gmn aja. bisa gara-gara ditemenin di 711 abis buka puasa, bisa gara-gara ditanyain udh bikin peer apa belom, bisa gara-gara sering diajak chat, bisa gara-gara gebetan lamanya selalu nyakitin dia, bisa gara-gara dikasih bunga pas drama, bisa gara-gara merasa familiar sm muka dia dan akhirnya malah kecantol beneran, atau yang paling kocak: suka gara-gara pernah satu angkot. ya intinya rasa suka itu bisa tumbuh dr siapa aja, kapan aja, dan dimana aja.
gue punya bbrp pengalaman suka sama cowok yang proses awalnya tuh rada abnormal. waktu kls 7, di smabel tuh ada pendidikan paskibra dasar pas mos, nah waktu itu giliran kls gue yg dpt pendidikan itu, trs gue iseng nyari-nyari kakak paskib yg ganteng, dan gue dipaksa kecewa karna ternyata gaada, eeeeh tiba-tiba....datanglah seorang kakak paskib cowok kls 9 dr kejauhan, sambil lari-lari gara-gara dtgnya kesiangan, dan lucky me: dia ngelatih kls gue. di kacamata gue, dia tuh ganteng. manis, badannya semok gitu. tapi bukan itu yg bikin gue punya rasa yg tak biasa, waktu lagi latihan hormat, gue yg cuma anak bawang yg gangerti apa-apa, salah cara hormatnya. dan dia sebagai kakak pelatih pun membantu gue buat benerin posisi tangan gue. dia..megang..tangan..gue. AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kapan lagi kan, bs dipegang sama orang ganteng!!! nah, sejak kejadian itu akhirnya gue jadi suka ngeliatin dia, walaupun (pastinya) secara diam-diam. biasanya sih, gue liatin dia dr lantai 3, waktu dia br dtg pas pagi. nah rasa suka inituh juga bikin kewarasan gue agak sedikit berkurang. suatu hari, gue pernah liat si kakak bawa tempat minum berwarna ijo, dan sejak hari itu, gue jd suka beli barang2 warna ijo, dan akhirnya gue suka ijo, sampe skrg ._. (end of story: 1)
cerita suka-sukaan konyol yang selanjutnya tuh waktu gue kelas 8. jadi waktu itu, guru bahasa indo gue nyuruh sekelas buat bikin drama, nah itukan dibagi berkelompok. nah, gue sekelompok sama orang yang dicerita ini adalah gebetan gue. tapi sebelom drama itu, gue gaada perasaan apa-apa. jadi..drama kelompok gue itu ada adegan si gebetan gue itu (sebut saja: Y) nembak gue pake bunga dan lagu derby romero yg judulnya ada asmara-asmaranya itu. sebenernya sih sampe drama selesai pun, gue msh biasa aja. sampe akhirnya........... (jengjengjengjenggg) abs pulang sekolah setelah drama itu, gue main kerumah temen gue bernama nadya, kita naik angkot, nah diangkot itu gue kan msh bawa2 bunga mawarnya, trs gue dicengin-cengin kan, dan tbtb gue jd ngerasa ada ''kupu-kupu'' diperut gue saat itu juga, dan yap...gue jd suka sm dia beneran. lama loh sukanya!! #penting. dan he's one of the person i ever liked and will never be forgotten. duh, kenangan selama 9bulan suka itu sweet-sweet bangettt :3 oiya, gue mulai suka sama dia itu tanggal 9 januari 2009. (end of story: 2)
nah cerita ketiga dan terakhir. sebenernya ini bukan perasaan suka yang dirasain di hati, tapi lebih ke nyenengin mata aja. jadi, waktu itu gue diminta buat ikut LDKS 68 2011-2012. nah wkt disana tuh ada acara debat buat anak kls 10-nya, kebetulan gue dan temen gue, andri, diminta jd pengawas debat antara kelompok 1 dan kelompok 2. waktu lagi enak2 sok galak, gue merasa familiar sama muka salah satu anak di kelompok 1, namanya hmmm duh censored aja deh ya, sebut aja deku. gue tanya, dia sekolah dmn, dia blg di al-azhar, nah gue gak merasa punya kenalan di al-azhar. trs gue tanya punya kakak gak, siapa tau gue kenal kakaknya kan, trs dia blg dia punya, tapi ternyata gue gakenal juga. nah sejak itu gue jd suka ngeliatin dia, abs mukanya imut bgt. tapi sampe skrg gue msh gatau knp gue bisa ngerasa familiar sm mukanya ._. oiya, bibirnya dia tebel loh (‾̴̴͡͡•‾̴̴͡͡) #abaikan (end of story: 3)
selain asal muasalnya yg kadang gajelas, rasa suka juga bisa nyulap lo jadi orang yang rada abnormal. kalo lo lagi suka sama orang, lo bisa banget jadi ngelakuin hal-hal aneh/gila/kurang kerjaan atau ya intinya kalo org normal liat, tuh gak normal, tentang org yg lo sukain. misalnya lo jadi suka buka timeline org yg lo suka dalam frekuensi sering didalem satu hari, atau lo jadi tau hal-hal ttg dia sampe sedetail2nya. misalnya: tau warna kesukaan adeknya, majalah langganan bapaknya, resep favorit ibunya, atau mungkin warna daleman pembantunya. ya intinya lo selalu pgn tau apa aja yg berhubungan sama si doi. dan kalo lo suka sama orang, itu efektif bgt buat ningkatin rasa malu lo, padahal biasanya lo tipe org yg bodo amatan.
tapiii selain nyebabin rasa seneng, "suka" juga bisa banget bikin lo kecewa. ya biasanya sih karena akhir kisah lo sama si doi gak berujung sesuai harapan. hmmm selo ajalah kalo cuma suka doang. yang repot ya kalo udah lebih dr suka..... hm. gue saranin, pinter-pinter deh jaga hati. kalo masih umur segini, mending batesin perasaan lo, jgn sampe lebih dr suka. tapi sebenernya u cant control ur feeling sih, kalo tiba-tiba lo fall in love, diri lo sendiri pun gaakan bisa ngehindarin itu. jadi nikmatin aja. kalo sakit, jalanin aja, nanti juga ilang sendiri. :D
nah segitu ajadeh post tentang suka-sukaan gue, gue tau ini sebenernya gapenting ._. makasih loh kalo udh luangin waktunya buat baca!
"u kno u're fall in love, when finally reality is much better than ur dream."
nah, sebelomnya gue gapernah kepikiran soal ini, apalagi buat dipost di blog. tapi tadi gara-gara gue ngobrol soal ''suka-sukaan'' sama nadiyah di motor, gue jd kepikiran. lucu ya, rasa ''suka'' ke lawan jenis itu bisa dtg dr mana aja, bisa mulai dari kayak gmn aja. bisa gara-gara ditemenin di 711 abis buka puasa, bisa gara-gara ditanyain udh bikin peer apa belom, bisa gara-gara sering diajak chat, bisa gara-gara gebetan lamanya selalu nyakitin dia, bisa gara-gara dikasih bunga pas drama, bisa gara-gara merasa familiar sm muka dia dan akhirnya malah kecantol beneran, atau yang paling kocak: suka gara-gara pernah satu angkot. ya intinya rasa suka itu bisa tumbuh dr siapa aja, kapan aja, dan dimana aja.
gue punya bbrp pengalaman suka sama cowok yang proses awalnya tuh rada abnormal. waktu kls 7, di smabel tuh ada pendidikan paskibra dasar pas mos, nah waktu itu giliran kls gue yg dpt pendidikan itu, trs gue iseng nyari-nyari kakak paskib yg ganteng, dan gue dipaksa kecewa karna ternyata gaada, eeeeh tiba-tiba....datanglah seorang kakak paskib cowok kls 9 dr kejauhan, sambil lari-lari gara-gara dtgnya kesiangan, dan lucky me: dia ngelatih kls gue. di kacamata gue, dia tuh ganteng. manis, badannya semok gitu. tapi bukan itu yg bikin gue punya rasa yg tak biasa, waktu lagi latihan hormat, gue yg cuma anak bawang yg gangerti apa-apa, salah cara hormatnya. dan dia sebagai kakak pelatih pun membantu gue buat benerin posisi tangan gue. dia..megang..tangan..gue. AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kapan lagi kan, bs dipegang sama orang ganteng!!! nah, sejak kejadian itu akhirnya gue jadi suka ngeliatin dia, walaupun (pastinya) secara diam-diam. biasanya sih, gue liatin dia dr lantai 3, waktu dia br dtg pas pagi. nah rasa suka inituh juga bikin kewarasan gue agak sedikit berkurang. suatu hari, gue pernah liat si kakak bawa tempat minum berwarna ijo, dan sejak hari itu, gue jd suka beli barang2 warna ijo, dan akhirnya gue suka ijo, sampe skrg ._. (end of story: 1)
cerita suka-sukaan konyol yang selanjutnya tuh waktu gue kelas 8. jadi waktu itu, guru bahasa indo gue nyuruh sekelas buat bikin drama, nah itukan dibagi berkelompok. nah, gue sekelompok sama orang yang dicerita ini adalah gebetan gue. tapi sebelom drama itu, gue gaada perasaan apa-apa. jadi..drama kelompok gue itu ada adegan si gebetan gue itu (sebut saja: Y) nembak gue pake bunga dan lagu derby romero yg judulnya ada asmara-asmaranya itu. sebenernya sih sampe drama selesai pun, gue msh biasa aja. sampe akhirnya........... (jengjengjengjenggg) abs pulang sekolah setelah drama itu, gue main kerumah temen gue bernama nadya, kita naik angkot, nah diangkot itu gue kan msh bawa2 bunga mawarnya, trs gue dicengin-cengin kan, dan tbtb gue jd ngerasa ada ''kupu-kupu'' diperut gue saat itu juga, dan yap...gue jd suka sm dia beneran. lama loh sukanya!! #penting. dan he's one of the person i ever liked and will never be forgotten. duh, kenangan selama 9bulan suka itu sweet-sweet bangettt :3 oiya, gue mulai suka sama dia itu tanggal 9 januari 2009. (end of story: 2)
nah cerita ketiga dan terakhir. sebenernya ini bukan perasaan suka yang dirasain di hati, tapi lebih ke nyenengin mata aja. jadi, waktu itu gue diminta buat ikut LDKS 68 2011-2012. nah wkt disana tuh ada acara debat buat anak kls 10-nya, kebetulan gue dan temen gue, andri, diminta jd pengawas debat antara kelompok 1 dan kelompok 2. waktu lagi enak2 sok galak, gue merasa familiar sama muka salah satu anak di kelompok 1, namanya hmmm duh censored aja deh ya, sebut aja deku. gue tanya, dia sekolah dmn, dia blg di al-azhar, nah gue gak merasa punya kenalan di al-azhar. trs gue tanya punya kakak gak, siapa tau gue kenal kakaknya kan, trs dia blg dia punya, tapi ternyata gue gakenal juga. nah sejak itu gue jd suka ngeliatin dia, abs mukanya imut bgt. tapi sampe skrg gue msh gatau knp gue bisa ngerasa familiar sm mukanya ._. oiya, bibirnya dia tebel loh (‾̴̴͡͡•‾̴̴͡͡) #abaikan (end of story: 3)
selain asal muasalnya yg kadang gajelas, rasa suka juga bisa nyulap lo jadi orang yang rada abnormal. kalo lo lagi suka sama orang, lo bisa banget jadi ngelakuin hal-hal aneh/gila/kurang kerjaan atau ya intinya kalo org normal liat, tuh gak normal, tentang org yg lo sukain. misalnya lo jadi suka buka timeline org yg lo suka dalam frekuensi sering didalem satu hari, atau lo jadi tau hal-hal ttg dia sampe sedetail2nya. misalnya: tau warna kesukaan adeknya, majalah langganan bapaknya, resep favorit ibunya, atau mungkin warna daleman pembantunya. ya intinya lo selalu pgn tau apa aja yg berhubungan sama si doi. dan kalo lo suka sama orang, itu efektif bgt buat ningkatin rasa malu lo, padahal biasanya lo tipe org yg bodo amatan.
tapiii selain nyebabin rasa seneng, "suka" juga bisa banget bikin lo kecewa. ya biasanya sih karena akhir kisah lo sama si doi gak berujung sesuai harapan. hmmm selo ajalah kalo cuma suka doang. yang repot ya kalo udah lebih dr suka..... hm. gue saranin, pinter-pinter deh jaga hati. kalo masih umur segini, mending batesin perasaan lo, jgn sampe lebih dr suka. tapi sebenernya u cant control ur feeling sih, kalo tiba-tiba lo fall in love, diri lo sendiri pun gaakan bisa ngehindarin itu. jadi nikmatin aja. kalo sakit, jalanin aja, nanti juga ilang sendiri. :D
nah segitu ajadeh post tentang suka-sukaan gue, gue tau ini sebenernya gapenting ._. makasih loh kalo udh luangin waktunya buat baca!
"u kno u're fall in love, when finally reality is much better than ur dream."
Monday, October 17, 2011
*tertohok*
Im begging of you please don't take my man
Please don't take him just because you can
Your beauty is beyond compare
Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, jolene
He talks about you in his sleep
There's nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name,jolene
From crying when he calls your name,
And I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, jolene
You could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
But I could never love again
Hes the only one for me, jolene
I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, jolene
Im begging of you please don't take my man
Please don't take him even though you can
Ku katakan dengan indah
Dengan terbuka
Hatiku hampa
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya
Sepertinya luka
Menghampirinya
Kau beri rasa
Yang berbeda
Mungkin ku salah
Mengartikannya
Yang ku rasa cinta
Yang berbeda
Mungkin ku salah
Mengartikannya
Yang ku rasa cinta
Tetapi hatiku
Selalu meninggikanmu
Terlalu meninggikanmu
Selalu meninggikanmu
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Hancurkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau terangi jiwaku
Kau redupkan lagi
Kau hancurkan hatiku
Tuk melihatmu
Kau buatku terjatuh
Dan tejatuh lagi
Membuatku merasakan yang tak terjadi
Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati
Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri
Thursday, September 29, 2011
confirmed.
ehm. halo. hahaha. ¬_¬ duh gajelas. hmmmm gue bingung gmn blgnya. sebenernya ini gapenting sih, tapi gmn ya.. gue mls jawab pertanyaan-pertanyaan org soal post2 blog gue atau soal post2 tumblr gue yang kesannya buat ''seseorang'', dan mereka semua kayaknya kok yakin bgt kalo semua post yg sarat 'galau' itu adalah buat farhan. dan mereka tuh batu gitu. udh gue blg, bukan. tapi tetep aja, mereka kayak merasa kalo itu emg buat farhan. they don't think that i can move from him. errr, gak gampang emg, tapi toh gue bisa. beneran bisa, nothing special aja gt skrg. and u may ask, who's the ''u'' behind my every post lately. hmmm siapapun itu, yg pasti dia bukan farhan. lagian, emg setiap ada kata ''elo'' itu hrs cowok? emg hrs crush gue? enggak kan. gue sering kok reblog/posting/ngetweet yg mungkin kalian pikir itu ttg farhan/crush gue padahal itu buat cesc, atau samuel, atau adel, atau temen2 lama gue di smp, atau nyokap gue, atau adek gue, atau bokap gue, ya pokoknya gak selalu crush lah.
sebenernya gue gamau ngurusin hal-hal gapenting kayak gini, tapi lama-lama gue risih juga kan. gue udh blg, gue moved on, and i mean it. gue gapernah lagi tuh, mikirin farhan. gapernah ngecheck timelinenya, gapernah kangen, gapernah bnr2 pgn ketemu. rasanya udh bener2 kayak ke yg lain. kayak ke dimas, ke riza, ke omar, ke yg lain2 deh pokoknya. dan satu hal lagi yg hrs dilurusin, yg hrs dibenerin dr pikiran org2 yg msh mikir gue still like him, gue gak cemburu atau punya perasaan2 gak enak ke dia&ceweknya. ataupun marah, cmon they're my friends. he love her, they're now official, and even at first i feel like, yeah u kno, brokenheart, but not for now!! gosh, i can't even remember how brokenheart feels like.
dan kalo misalnya gue blg dia ganteng, hot, seksi atau apalah skrg ini, itu semua bnr2 karna dimata gue saat itu ya dia begitu, bukan karna gue punya special feeling or whatevs. dan yekali ya, mikir dikit juga kali, kalo gue msh suka sm doi, gamungkin juga kan gue bs muji2 dia atau ngomongin ttg perasaan yg udh lewat ini lgsg sm doi? zz ya kecuali gue emg udh jago akting kali ye, ah tp gamungkin bs segitunya juga lah kalo sebenernya msh ada feeling.
dan buat yg baca post ini, dan merasa, gue gak maksut nyinggung atau apa. ya blog ini gue bikin kan emg buat curhat pribadi aja. dan ini bukan blog yg universal so i can wrote lyk anything i feel here. tolong ngerti ya perasaan risih gue. teserah skrg msh mau gapercaya atau whatevs, tp tolong gausah sok yakin kalo itu semua buat farhan. kalo mau cengin sih, ya gue slo aja secara kita temenan kan. tp ya jgn ampe mbatuw lah intinya. inikan rasa suka gue, kalo udh abis ya gausah batu kalo ini msh ada lah yaw. ok? muchas gracias, amigos!
xx.
sebenernya gue gamau ngurusin hal-hal gapenting kayak gini, tapi lama-lama gue risih juga kan. gue udh blg, gue moved on, and i mean it. gue gapernah lagi tuh, mikirin farhan. gapernah ngecheck timelinenya, gapernah kangen, gapernah bnr2 pgn ketemu. rasanya udh bener2 kayak ke yg lain. kayak ke dimas, ke riza, ke omar, ke yg lain2 deh pokoknya. dan satu hal lagi yg hrs dilurusin, yg hrs dibenerin dr pikiran org2 yg msh mikir gue still like him, gue gak cemburu atau punya perasaan2 gak enak ke dia&ceweknya. ataupun marah, cmon they're my friends. he love her, they're now official, and even at first i feel like, yeah u kno, brokenheart, but not for now!! gosh, i can't even remember how brokenheart feels like.
dan kalo misalnya gue blg dia ganteng, hot, seksi atau apalah skrg ini, itu semua bnr2 karna dimata gue saat itu ya dia begitu, bukan karna gue punya special feeling or whatevs. dan yekali ya, mikir dikit juga kali, kalo gue msh suka sm doi, gamungkin juga kan gue bs muji2 dia atau ngomongin ttg perasaan yg udh lewat ini lgsg sm doi? zz ya kecuali gue emg udh jago akting kali ye, ah tp gamungkin bs segitunya juga lah kalo sebenernya msh ada feeling.
dan buat yg baca post ini, dan merasa, gue gak maksut nyinggung atau apa. ya blog ini gue bikin kan emg buat curhat pribadi aja. dan ini bukan blog yg universal so i can wrote lyk anything i feel here. tolong ngerti ya perasaan risih gue. teserah skrg msh mau gapercaya atau whatevs, tp tolong gausah sok yakin kalo itu semua buat farhan. kalo mau cengin sih, ya gue slo aja secara kita temenan kan. tp ya jgn ampe mbatuw lah intinya. inikan rasa suka gue, kalo udh abis ya gausah batu kalo ini msh ada lah yaw. ok? muchas gracias, amigos!
xx.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
capricorn - 30stm
guidelines:
1. put your itunes or windows media player on shuffle.
2. for each question, press the next button to get your next answer.
3. you must write that song name down no matter how outrageous it sounds!
if someone says, "is this okay" you say?
= damn regret - the red jumpsuit apparatus
what would best describe your personality?
= burning in the skies - linkin park
what do you like in a guy/girl?
= your song cover - cameron mitchell
what is your life's purpose?
= better that we break - maroon5
what is your motto?
= candles - hey monday
what do your friends think of you?
= morning mr magpie - radiohead
what do you think about often?
= asmaul husna - hadad alwi (Alhamdulillah yahhh...)
what is 2+2?
= from yesterday - 30stm
what do you think of your best friend?
= kick ass - mika (HELL YEAH)
what do you think of your main squeeze?
= booty bounce - dev
what is your life story? = breakeven - the script
what do you want to be when you grow up?
= whats my name - rihanna (hmm amnesia?)
what do you think when you see the person you like?
= pump it - bep
what do your parents think of you?
= jenna - bridges i burn (oh no..)
what will you dance to at your wedding?
= shadow of the day - linkin park
what will they play at your funeral?
= i'd lie - taylor swift
what is your hobby/interest?
= so sick - neyo (hazihi fitnah!!)
what do you think of your friends?
= the catalyst - linkin park
what's the worst thing that could happen?
= something about love - archie
how will you die?
= all time low - the wanted (hahahaahahah)
what is the one thing you regret?
= love drunk - boys like girls (oh c'mon u can read my mind?!)
what makes you laugh?
= himnos nacionales de espana (damn ryyyt)
what makes you cry?
= therapy - all time low
will you ever get married?
= circles - all time low (oh yeah reality)
what scares you the most?
= wonderwall - oasis
does anyone like you?
= the adventure of rain dance maggie - red hot chili peppers
if you could go back in time, what would you change?
= blackbird cover - glee
what hurts right now?
= 21guns - greenday (FAAAAKYU)
what would you name this post?
= capricorn (brand new name) - 30stm
1. put your itunes or windows media player on shuffle.
2. for each question, press the next button to get your next answer.
3. you must write that song name down no matter how outrageous it sounds!
if someone says, "is this okay" you say?
= damn regret - the red jumpsuit apparatus
what would best describe your personality?
= burning in the skies - linkin park
what do you like in a guy/girl?
= your song cover - cameron mitchell
what is your life's purpose?
= better that we break - maroon5
what is your motto?
= candles - hey monday
what do your friends think of you?
= morning mr magpie - radiohead
what do you think about often?
= asmaul husna - hadad alwi (Alhamdulillah yahhh...)
what is 2+2?
= from yesterday - 30stm
what do you think of your best friend?
= kick ass - mika (HELL YEAH)
what do you think of your main squeeze?
= booty bounce - dev
what is your life story? = breakeven - the script
what do you want to be when you grow up?
= whats my name - rihanna (hmm amnesia?)
what do you think when you see the person you like?
= pump it - bep
what do your parents think of you?
= jenna - bridges i burn (oh no..)
what will you dance to at your wedding?
= shadow of the day - linkin park
what will they play at your funeral?
= i'd lie - taylor swift
what is your hobby/interest?
= so sick - neyo (hazihi fitnah!!)
what do you think of your friends?
= the catalyst - linkin park
what's the worst thing that could happen?
= something about love - archie
how will you die?
= all time low - the wanted (hahahaahahah)
what is the one thing you regret?
= love drunk - boys like girls (oh c'mon u can read my mind?!)
what makes you laugh?
= himnos nacionales de espana (damn ryyyt)
what makes you cry?
= therapy - all time low
will you ever get married?
= circles - all time low (oh yeah reality)
what scares you the most?
= wonderwall - oasis
does anyone like you?
= the adventure of rain dance maggie - red hot chili peppers
if you could go back in time, what would you change?
= blackbird cover - glee
what hurts right now?
= 21guns - greenday (FAAAAKYU)
what would you name this post?
= capricorn (brand new name) - 30stm
robot boy
You say you're not going to fight
Because no one will fight for you
And you think there's not enough love
And no one to give it to
And you're sure you've hurt for so long
You've got nothing left to lose
So you say you're not going to fight
Because no one will fight for you
You say the weight of the world
Has kept you from letting go
And you think compassion's a flaw
And you'll never let it show
And you're sure you've hurt in a way
That no one will ever know
But someday the weight of the world
Will give you strength to go
Because no one will fight for you
And you think there's not enough love
And no one to give it to
And you're sure you've hurt for so long
You've got nothing left to lose
So you say you're not going to fight
Because no one will fight for you
You say the weight of the world
Has kept you from letting go
And you think compassion's a flaw
And you'll never let it show
And you're sure you've hurt in a way
That no one will ever know
But someday the weight of the world
Will give you strength to go
Thursday, September 22, 2011
no, i'm not.
no, i'm not moving on. neither giving up. i dont even ever stay in u. i dont even ever try anything on u. i'm not move, bcos i never stay. i'm not give up, bcos i never try anything.
maybe now, i'm just trying to let it go. 'cos i ever have u in me. in head, maybe heart.
jenna, i'm sorry. this is me. u never yes or no, u always maybe. if we believe i swear we can fly, if we try~~~
maybe now, i'm just trying to let it go. 'cos i ever have u in me. in head, maybe heart.
jenna, i'm sorry. this is me. u never yes or no, u always maybe. if we believe i swear we can fly, if we try~~~
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
still.
here i'm again. hmmm he's leaving us. now, i feel so sad about this. 2nd broken heart in 2011. in my life, actually. but this is the most broken heart moment, ever. i cried, yeah =_= useless, i know. but i cant hold this tears any longer. i cant pretend like i'm okay when he's leaving us. i cant say i'm fine when he's now apart from us. Arsenal and Cesc used to be one. Cesc is Arsenal. and Arsenal Captain is Cesc. but now? no more. Cesc is Gunner, but not Arsenal. Arsenal's Captain isn't him anymore. i cant see him plays such a beautiful games with the captain ban on his arm anymore. i cant see him in red shirt with gun in his chest again. he's still my numero four, but not in Arsenal.
thank you Cesc for playing for Arsenal. thank you for making me smile. thank you for being my hero. please stay the same and change only if you're becoming better <3 i'll support you no matter what. through your misses and shots on target. through your good and bad times. through your injuries. through your international games. 'cause i love you. <3 <3 <3 and..thank you for made love and know about football. it started from you! hahahaha. but i will always be a Gooner. i will always support Arsenal, just like when you were still here. with or without you, Arsenal is Arsenal. and i will always be their fan.
xoxo -ur biggest lover-
thank you Cesc for playing for Arsenal. thank you for making me smile. thank you for being my hero. please stay the same and change only if you're becoming better <3 i'll support you no matter what. through your misses and shots on target. through your good and bad times. through your injuries. through your international games. 'cause i love you. <3 <3 <3 and..thank you for made love and know about football. it started from you! hahahaha. but i will always be a Gooner. i will always support Arsenal, just like when you were still here. with or without you, Arsenal is Arsenal. and i will always be their fan.
xoxo -ur biggest lover-
Monday, August 15, 2011
Cesc Fabregas through the Arsenal years
Full name: Francesc Fàbregas Soler
Date of Birth: 4 May 1987
2003/04 Season:
Cesc joined the Club in 16 September 2003 and became Arsenal’s youngest ever first-team player, aged 16 years and 177 days, when he made his debut against Rotherham United in the League Cup on October 23.
2004/05 Season:
It was not until the start of the 2004/05 season that Cesc made serious inroads into the first-team, and he started against Manchester United in the season-opening Community Shield on August 8.
2005/06 Season:
After the departure of Patrick Vieira to Juventus, Cesc was given the Frenchman’s No 4 shirt and featured regularly in the Arsenal midfield alongside Gilberto Silva.
2006/07 Season:
Cesc signed a new eight-year contract in October as he signalled his intention to spend his best years at the Club. “I am so happy here and I am delighted to have signed this new contract that will keep me at the Club for years to come,” he said.
2007/08 Season:
Cesc continued to be a vital member of the team as he had his most productive season in front of goal, scoring 13 times in all competitions.
2008/09 Season:
Cesc Fabregas was ruled out for four months after sustaining a knee injury in a 50:50 challenge with Xabi Alonso in a game against Liverpool.
On November 24, Cesc was appointed Club Captain and successor to William Gallas. “It is a great honour for me to captain one of the biggest clubs in the world. It is a proud moment. I know it’s a big responsibility but together with my team-mates, I know we have the spirit and commitment to get back to winning ways and fulfil our potential.”
2009/10 Season:
Cesc Fabregas has had some outstanding seasons in an Arsenal shirt but 2009/10 was surely his best yet.
2010/11 Season:
Cesc Fabregas has had better seasons than 2010/11 but he was as effective as ever when he did make it onto the pitch.
so, Arsenal made Cesc Fabregas the player he is today.
Date of Birth: 4 May 1987
2003/04 Season:
Cesc joined the Club in 16 September 2003 and became Arsenal’s youngest ever first-team player, aged 16 years and 177 days, when he made his debut against Rotherham United in the League Cup on October 23.
2004/05 Season:
It was not until the start of the 2004/05 season that Cesc made serious inroads into the first-team, and he started against Manchester United in the season-opening Community Shield on August 8.
2005/06 Season:
After the departure of Patrick Vieira to Juventus, Cesc was given the Frenchman’s No 4 shirt and featured regularly in the Arsenal midfield alongside Gilberto Silva.
2006/07 Season:
Cesc signed a new eight-year contract in October as he signalled his intention to spend his best years at the Club. “I am so happy here and I am delighted to have signed this new contract that will keep me at the Club for years to come,” he said.
2007/08 Season:
Cesc continued to be a vital member of the team as he had his most productive season in front of goal, scoring 13 times in all competitions.
2008/09 Season:
Cesc Fabregas was ruled out for four months after sustaining a knee injury in a 50:50 challenge with Xabi Alonso in a game against Liverpool.
On November 24, Cesc was appointed Club Captain and successor to William Gallas. “It is a great honour for me to captain one of the biggest clubs in the world. It is a proud moment. I know it’s a big responsibility but together with my team-mates, I know we have the spirit and commitment to get back to winning ways and fulfil our potential.”
2009/10 Season:
Cesc Fabregas has had some outstanding seasons in an Arsenal shirt but 2009/10 was surely his best yet.
2010/11 Season:
Cesc Fabregas has had better seasons than 2010/11 but he was as effective as ever when he did make it onto the pitch.
so, Arsenal made Cesc Fabregas the player he is today.
c
gatau mau ngomong apa lagi. i'm so speechless and all these words have gone. akhirnya hal yang gue takutin kejadian juga. he's leaving us. he's not here anymore. he's gone.
''you're Barca player now. but you still our youngest captain.''
''just doing your best in Barcelona. i hope you will never forget a club who has made your name is known by the world.''
''Arsenal teachs a football to cesc from zero to hero, and he got it. not Diving, but Playing.''
''he's only 24, and he's better than Xavi.''
''Emirates, Arsenal, and Arsene Wenger are everything to him. he was nothing before he came to London. but, Barcelona is his home.''
''there's many offers and salaries much bigger for him from another clubs. but, why he prefer Barca? because he just wanna go home.''
dua kalimat terakhir itu, bener-bener nyentuh hati gue. he knows what best for him. and i'm moving on. but still, i love you no less, captain. <3
''you're Barca player now. but you still our youngest captain.''
''just doing your best in Barcelona. i hope you will never forget a club who has made your name is known by the world.''
''Arsenal teachs a football to cesc from zero to hero, and he got it. not Diving, but Playing.''
''he's only 24, and he's better than Xavi.''
''Emirates, Arsenal, and Arsene Wenger are everything to him. he was nothing before he came to London. but, Barcelona is his home.''
''there's many offers and salaries much bigger for him from another clubs. but, why he prefer Barca? because he just wanna go home.''
dua kalimat terakhir itu, bener-bener nyentuh hati gue. he knows what best for him. and i'm moving on. but still, i love you no less, captain. <3
Friday, August 12, 2011
what if?
what if i say, i have a special feeling for u? what if i say, u've stole something from me; a piece of my heart? what if i say, u're the one that i want to see, these days? what if i say, i get a little jealous when i see u with her? what if i say, when i'm with you, my outside is cool while my inside is blue? what if i say, this feeling will mess our friendship? what if....i fall for you?
tutup aurat.
lo semua pasti tau kan, kalo sebagai seorang muslimah, gue diwajibkan buat nutup aurat gue. so, berarti gue hrs pake kerudung. gapernah terlintas sedikit pun diotak gue, buat pake kerudung di umur under 20. gue pikir paling gue br pake kerudung pas kuliah, atau malah pas nikah. gapernah gue ngebayangin cerminan diri gue sendiri pas serius pake kerudung. gue pikir, mana mungkin bocah begajulan gak keruan kayak gue, bisa tahan pake kerudung di under 20. gmn ceritanya gue yg sholat msh bolong2, kalo ada ceramah malah pake earphone, hobi ngomongin org, seneng liat cowo-cowo hot, nempel-nempel sm yg bukan muhrim selow, bisa kepikiran buat pake kerudung.
and here we go, bbrp bulan ini gue mulai berpikir buat pake kerudung. well, cm baru terlintas doang. semenit, abis itu lupa. suatu hari gue diingetin sama temen gue bernama Adam, tentang seberapa dosa yg bakal gue dpt kalo gak nutup aurat. well, gue, tercengang. tapi unfortunetly, hati gue belom tergerak buat nutup aurat gue. gue msh pengen meng-eksis-kan rambut gue yg kribo nan asoy ini.
until suddenly, disuatu pagi yang cerah, dibulan Ramadhan 1432 H. tepatnya tanggal 8 Ramadhan 1432 H atau 8 Agustus 2011. gue, sebagai siswi SMAN68Jakarta yg berbudi pekerti luhur, mengikuti kegiatan rutin harian Ramadhan, yaitu Tadarus bersama di lapangan. dan seperti biasa pula, abis Tadarus, bakal ada yg ngasih kultum didepan. dan.......ini dia. detik-detik paling berharga di hidup gue. #eaa. majulah seorang Kausar Meloza (maaf kalo salah tulis) ke depan buat ngasih kultum. dia pun mulai berkultum, tentang Hadist Rasulullah SAW. gue gainget persis apa Hadist pertamanya, tapi ada satu hadist yg paling gue inget di kultumnya si kausar. Hadist kedua. dia cerita ttg perkataan Rasulullah SAW yg blg bahwa umat-NYA yg paling banyak masuk neraka adalah perempuan. kenapa? karena banyak perempuan yg gak nutup aurat. sampe disini, gue msh biasa aja. msh cuek, sama kayak hari-hari kemaren. sampe akhirnya, kausar cerita soal hukuman dineraka buat perempuan2 yg gak nutup aurat. dia blg, perempuan2 itu bakal digantung pake rambutnya sendiri, dan otaknya bakal mendidih.
tiba-tiba gue diem. tiba-tiba kayak ada yg nyentil gue. tiba-tiba otak gue jd kacau. tiba-tiba gue denger berita cesc pindah ke barcelona #PLAK. tiba-tiba, gue terpikir lagi buat pake kerudung. tapi kali ini beda. ini gak sama. gue kepikiran, bener-bener kepikiran. mulai dr si kausar selesai kultum, ampe sore gue gaberenti mikirin ''gmn kalo gue nutup aurat mulai skrg?'' dan gue lgsg nanya ke dalmatian. mereka blg ya semua terserah gue. lalu gue tanya nyokap, dan jawaban nyokap pun hampir serupa, tapi lebih bijak. gue tambah bingung. gue jd galau. gue pgn sholat istikharah, tapi lagi mens. gue makin pusing. gue makin galau. rambut gue makin semrawut dan uban gue makin memutih. akhirnya setelah semedi didepan layar hp dan berpikir matang-matang, akhirnya............gue..........seorang Sabila Fadhiah, seorang mantan ketua geng motor yg cuma punya satu anggota, seorang kribolos yang gak pernah bolos, seorang pecinta El Arsenal El Real El España dan El Fàbregas, seorang begajulan yg hobi nongkrong di sarinah sama 2bocahkontrasberatbadan, pun memutuskan buat nutup aurat. yak, gue memutuskan buat pake kerudung.
besoknya, komentar dr temen2 gue adalah heboh. heboh banget. sangat heboh banget. sangat terlalu heboh banget. mereka teriak, histeris, meluk, ngeliatin, pamerin gue ke org lain (¬_¬) dan lain-lain-lain yg heboh-heboh. mereka dgn semena-mena ngeganti nama gue jd ''soleha''. guru-guru pun ternyata sadar sama perubahan penampilan gue. mereka bilang, gue cantik. aduh dr dulu kmn aja bu, pak. T_T. hahahaha. sejauh ini semua komentarnya positif, kecuali dr Aidhil yg keliatannya msh blm bisa nerima kenyataan kalo sobatnya yg bohay ini udh pake kerudung :3 tapi akhirnya....Aidhil menerima juga kenyataan ini. huaha.
orang-orang pun jd banyak yg nanya ''lo beneran pake kerudung? apa cuma pas bulan puasa doang?'' entah apa yg ada dipikiran org2 itu, dikira gue artis yg ke-gap pake narkoba dan lgsg pake kerudung buat nutupin kedok apa yak.. T_T dan gue cuma bisa jawab dgn muka (sok) manis: ''insya Allah seterusnya, doain ya :)'' manis kan? beeeh, banget. so, intinya, gue, sekarang, udah, memutuskan, buat, nutup, aurat, gue. doain ya, semoga ini selamanya. #eaa
kecup hangat, wassalam
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